One week down...forever to go....

Not in a bad way. I like my job(so far), but when I went back to work I never intended it to be forever. A means to an end, a temporary bump in the road. I enjoyed being a stay at home mom. I loved it. I hated going back to work, bit I did it for our family, for Jason. He always said when he worked his way back up to his army salary(plus any COLA increases) I could go back to being a SAHM.

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He told me this week he doesn't think I'll ever be a SAHM again. Or should I say he doesn't want me to be. He said he doesn't think our family will ever be able to survive on 1 salary again. I'm not sure why he thinks this because well...he doesn't pay the bills. He has NO idea the cost for anything in the house. He just uses the check card to buy what he wants unless I tell him to cool it. 98% of the time he doesn't even know when his payday is. So how can he say that he wouldn't be able to afford it again? It's times like these that I struggle. I struggle with the predicament he put our family in. I struggle to remain supportive and upbeat. I struggle. I don't WANT to work. I WANT to be home with my kids. Working in classrooms, organizing room parties, volunteering in the office. I want to clean the house, do the laundry, and grocery shop while they are at school so I don't have to take the time away from them to do it while they are home with me.

Honestly....

I want to go back to Sherman.
Pre-Army BS of course.
I was happiest there.
Why does hindsight have to be 20/20??

Nightmare

I had a hard time sleeping last night. I was having a horrible dream that would not end. It was like it was looped. Same thing over and over. I even woke up a few times, and when I went back to sleep it was there again. Nobody died, just one of my deepest fears revisited.

bad night

savannah is sick. she had fever all last night and threw up at the dinner table. She came into our room and needed attention all night(meds, water, tlc). then at 3 i woke up with a migraine. got in a scalding hot shower for 20 minutes, took some excedrin and my migraine pill(the last one). i feel tons better now. BUT my beautiful straightened hair is curly again and between savannah and the migraine i got very little sleep. i hope this today goes fast so i can go back to bed.....

First Day

I'm sure I'll complain about it later, but the drive was nice. It was nicer going to work, than home from work, but nice nonetheless. Just me, the mini van, and some music. It was even pretty enough to have the windows down and a breeze blowing through.

I didn't really "work" today. That will be next week. This week is HR training...sexual harassment...company history...don't do insider trading.....you know the usual.

I can't wait to get with my group. I met one of the ladies today. Her name is Angelique or Angelica or something like that. Not sure who she is or where she works exactly, but she's around me somewhere. And her name is awesome...wink..wink...wink...

All else is well. Sis has her $$$ appointment tomorrow for school. Pray for lots o financial aide for her!

Last Day.....

While I am super excited to be starting my new job. I'm very sad to be leaving some of my peeps from the old one. I will not miss the job. I will miss the people.

This is the fabulous new bag my assistant Kim got for me.

She said I needed a new handbag for my new job.

(Kim is a purse girl!)

I will miss her the very most.

We both cried when she gave me my card and gift.

Me and Kim on my last dayThis is the chocolate that one of my customers brought me on Friday!

She is so sweet!

Kim again, just cause she's so darn cute:)

Saturday evening we had our monthly D3 party/Angel goodbye party.

We met up at Fuddruckers for some yummy burgers and conversation.

After that we headed over to local bar for some karaoke.

This is Shannon, she is the store manager at the Hulen store(no her hair is not permed)

Last but not least is "Big Daddy" Roy. I love this guy. He's smart, witty,

and one of the best managers I've ever had. He has so many great things in store for him.

I'm off to get the kiddos in bed, so I can bathe and prepare for my big day!

Short Timers

I have that syndrome. You know, the one where your close to being done with something, or something is close to being over and you're just antsy as all get out? Yup, I have it. BAD! I have 4 days left at CWF and they are dragging and I'm so antsy. It'd be different if we were busy and my mind stayed occupied, but we're not and it doesn't.

I'm scared but also excited to start my new job. Scared b/c its something different. I'm sure I can do it, and that I'll do it well, but it's still new. New is different. New is scary. Yet exciting. I'm so ready for new.

Passionate Kisses

These are what every woman wants. Oh, and we don't want them to lead to sex or to get them only during sex. Jason and I were talking about this the other night. Let me re-phrase, I talked Jason listened. One thing that we've been very good about is keeping passion in our relationship. I have always said I don't want to be one of those couples that just exist together. I don't want to be old, gray and wrinkly living with with an old man who burps, farts, and has hair growing out of his ears. I want to still be in love. I want to be that gross old couple on the beach that can't keep their hands off each other and ruin all the young people's vacations. I expect, demand and have received that passionate love.

Until recently....

We've been in a funk. No real reason. Well, I guess life is a reason. Work, schedules, stress, kids, oh yea, did I mention life? We haven't made time to just be together. Just us. We used to, but we got out of the habit. Such is life. On Friday we went to dinner, it was nice. Not at first though. At first it was awkward, uncomfortable, and down right awful. Had we made a mistake? Was the 10 years of passion just luck? A fluke? I hoped not. He hoped not. Yet we were still silent........

Finally the dam broke. Words, emotions, hurt, happiness, thoughts, desires, memories spilled out. We talked, and talked, and talked, like we hadn't talked in years(okay, months!) We talked about some stuff that I had said that hurt him, and of course I had no clue. We talked things from my childhood that he never knew. We talked about my feelings of inadequacies, and how I deal with them, or don't deal with them.... Along with all these words came the passion. The passion that had been on hold for a few months, the passion that I prayed was still there but couldn't find. Jason and I are not normally the type of people that hang on to stuff. We say what we have to say, we get it out in the open, and we move on. We don't get mad at each other often, and when we do, we don't stay mad..because we talk about it. We hadn't been talking, that was our problem. We had put everything else before us, so there was a failure to communicate. One thing that cannot exist in a successful marriage is a failure to communicate. You have to make a plan, a schedule, a time to communicate. And we weren't, we were letting it slip to the side. We've learned our lesson.

SOOOO.........

I got new panties.

I bought a size too big.

Nothing is more annoying then walking and having your panties slide down your butt.

'Cept having to stick your hands down your pants to pull them up.

IT'S A BOY!

That's right! At 5:11 this morning Staci gave birth to beautiful baby boy. Morgan Eugene Thompson weighed in at 9 lbs and 7 oz and is 19 1/2 inches long! I am going to the hospital this evening to visit, so there will be pictures later:)

Today was good

I worked, but I was out of there by 2. YIPEE!! Misty and I took the girls to payless to BOGO and I got some super cool shoes. They have orange in them:) Then sister and I dropped the young off with friends and we hit the road. Sister time. We went and got pedicures and our eyebrows waxed. Then headed over to Arlington to go to Dirty Dillards for some shopping. Sadly, they were closed by the time we got there. So we went to recollections, target, and got some yummy dinner instead.

Tomorrow we will be heading back to D.D. They have an extra 50-75% off their already 75% off prices! Sweet!

I'll post pics of my goodies tomorrow. My shoes are super cool, and so are my new scrap supplies:)

She's not going to die!

We know this. All rational viewers know this. It's Grey's Anatomy for crying out loud, but that does not mean we are not on the edge of our seats. It does not mean our hearts don't ache. I know. It's a show, but it's my show! And right now, I hate Izzy. She was my fave, but what she said to George was just ugly and hurtful, and I don't believe it. I think Callie is awesome and good for George. A lot better than toxic Meridith was. Anyway....enough of fake life. Back to reality....


I GOT THE JOB!

Yup, I got it! They called me yesterday and offered it to me. Woo-Hoo! Tomorrow I have to give my 2 weeks. I'm pretty excited. Saturdays..you know those days where people rest and hang out with family's and friends...I'm gonna have those!!! YIPEE!!!

I got to watch Veronica Mars! WOO-HOO! It feels like I never get to watch this show anymore and I LOVE it so much. I've missed a few. Logan and Veronica are broke up AGAIN! GRRR! But another person was murdered, so more storyline.

All is well. I'm feeling better. Not 100%, but better.

Later Gator

I did it!

I blogged everyday this week.

I rock.

I'm still sick.

Going back to home on the sofa......

My new BFF

Still Sick
Feel Like Crap
Nose Hurts From Wiping
Throat Hurts From Coughing

Sleep, Sleeping, Slept

That's pretty much what I have done today. I woke up this morning feeling like you know what. Coughing, sore throat, body aches, and lil bit of a fever. So I called in sick. This is the first time I have called in sick in the over 11 months I have worked for CWF. I don't feel bad about it. I even turned off my cell phone b/c I didn't want calls. I just wanted to rest. Which I did. Jason gave me nighttime robotussin at 8 so that knocked me out for awhile. Woke up, hung out watching TV for a bit, then took a bubble bath, and went back to bed for a while. Now I'm up trying to decide if we should make dinner or pick up pizza. Gotta love Little Ceasers $5 hot and ready pizza!

Hangin' with the sis tonight

See ya'll tomorrow :)

I don't really want to post today.....

but I did this damn challenge! GRRRRRR.

Anyway, feeling pretty crappy. Me and the sister are fighting. Well, sort of. When we fight we don't talk. We Blog Fight. It's so stupid. I think we are the only people that do it. For some reason when she's mad at me she won't say it. She hurt my feelings, I hurt her feelings......blah, blah, blah. I wish we could talk about it, but she can't. I don't know why. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells with her. If I ask to many questions, I'm nosey and judgemental. I back off and let her have her space and I'm ignoring her and sitting on the computer all the time. I can't mind read. I don't know what she wants. I don't know what to do. She loves me, at least I think she does. She once had these wonderfully kind words to say about me....

my hero is my big sister. that girl has it together and makes it look so easy. and i just struggle to be in her shadow. she's smart, funny, loving and tough. she always knows what questions to ask, who to ask and what to do. i wish i was more like her. sure would make my life alot easier.

We'll get through it. We always do. I wish we could talk and we wouldn't have to fight like this.

Well, the day STARTED out great.....

This was gonna be a good day. I felt it. Boy was I wrong!

I had an interview this morning. I really want the job. The company is great. The pay is a little less than what I make now, but I will not have to work Saturdays!!! Can I get a woo-woo! So looking forward to that. I'll keep you posted!

BUT.....

Then I went to work. One of my very good friends from one of the other stores got fired. No warning, no re-training opportunity. He came to work, put his key in the door, and it didn't work. His position had been terminated. I think it's b/c he's gay. One of the managers had made disparaging remarks about gays to another manager and mentioned his name. Totally sucks.

THEN.....

I read my sister's blog. It really hurt my feelings. We are so alike in some ways, and so different in others. It's weird. I guess all siblings are like that. I'll get over it. I'm pretty used to having my feelings hurt by now.

AND THE ICING ON THE MONDAY CAKE...........

I normally love mail. Not today though. We got a letter from DFAS. They finally got around to charging us for the car Jason wrecked. I had hoped they'd forgotten. They didn't. We now owe them $4,288.81 plus interest.

SO, HOW WAS YOUR MONDAY??????

Bad Blogger

I love blogging. I love reading blogs of others. It's great to know what's going on in the lives of my friends since I do not get to see them or talk to them every day. I love going to someones blog and seeing they have updated. What will they say? Is it going to be a big announcement? Will it be sad? Funny? Interesting? You learn a lot about people from their blogs. So why haven't I blogged? So that my friends can be happy when they see an update about my life. No reason. Just lazy and tired. I think about it, then I think about what I would say, then I don't do it. There are lots of people who read this blog that I don't know. Or I do know them, but they don't let me know they read the blog by leaving comments. Therefore I try to be politically correct. I don't want to hurt anyone, offend anyone, or blow a secret that another may not know. I also don't want to bore with frivolous info, or brag about my insanely smart and kids kids all the time. I don't want to complain or seem petty. So, what's a girl to do?

Just blog. If I offend someone. I'm sorry. If I hurt you feelings. I'm sorry. If you don't want to read info that will not not make you smarter, read another blog. Don't think my kids are insanely cute and smart? Seek life elsewhere. It's my blog. So I can do whatever I want. Yea, for me being a grown-up! I'll try to do better about blogging. I'm challenging myself to blog everyday this week. Even if it is just about my(boring) day. I also challenge the people who are regular readers of my blog to do the same. If you don't have a blog I challenge you to get one!!! It's such an awesome tool for staying connected(when properly updated.)

Update! Update!

So I betcha thought I died. Nope, still here. Nothing to exciting going on, so I didn't have much to post about. Let's see if I can drum up some news from the past few days.....

• Jason started his new job. So far he likes it. The hours suck and the pay sucks even worse, but I am willing to deal with this as long as he's happy.
• Jonathan and Elize preformed in the talent show on Thursday. They did great! As far as I know no awards were being given, but if they were Elize and her friend would get one. They did so good. Elize is so naturally athletic, and has a dancers body, she blew the socks off all the other girls who danced.
• Ashyra has an Afro-mullet. It's the cutest thing you've ever seen! Long and curly in the back, super short on top. This is not by choice. No cutting devices have been near her hair.
• Savannah got a workbook at Wally world yesterday that she is super excited to work in. She is really liking doing these workbook pages. We had fun doing a few tonight. She has yet to chose her 'niche'. Her thing that is hers. I'm sure it will come soon. For now she is just kinda floating, from interest to interest.
• My collections girl got fired. Her replacement starts tomorrow. The new girl seems nice. Very chatty on the phone. Hopefully she won't have as many issues as the last one.
• With Jason's crappy hours I've gotten to spend lots-o-time with my sister these past few days. I'm loving it. We've gotten back to the point were we are finishing each others sentences. I missed that. God should give everyone little sisters to love.

The Lost Art of Letter Writing

Today I bought stamps. I don't mail things often. I should be better at it. I don't send pictures of my kiddos like I used to. My goal this weekend is to send pictures of my children to friends and family that do not have computers. I would also like to include a hand written note! Gasp! I have seriously defaulted on many relationships due to my schedule. I want to let these people know I love them and think of them often.

A Monday funny

After the christening of his baby brother in church, little Johnny sobbed all the way home in the back seat of the car........
His father asked him three times what was wrong.
Finally, the boy replied,
"That priest said he wanted us brought up in a Christian home, and I want to stay with you guys"!

Lips

My good friend Melibelle made me my own very(and I mean VERY) cool digi sb stuff. I'm to impatient to learn the in's and out's of digi sb-ing, but I LOVE using the digi elements to spice up pictures. It's much more simple, I can actually wrap my brain around it. Here is a pic I altered with some digi stuff. I love how it turned out. The quote is from a song called Lips like Morphine. It's not a drug song. It's a actually a love song.


I don't like my nose. I may redo it with just the lips and crop out the nose. Adobe is so awesome and confusing, it give me a brain ache just thinking of all the cool stuff that can be done with it. 99% of which I can not understand yet. Meli taught me(and Lou) the basics, but I still have a lot to learn. Off to change more photos!

Winter Blues

Thanks to everyone who e-mailed or called me after my past few posts. It's nice to know people worry if I'm not my normal peppy self. I'm just feeling blah. No real rhyme or reason. Just blah. I think it's the winter blues. The weather is so depressing. I of course have to work for a company that doesn't close, no matter how bad the weather. I'm waiting for the emergency vehicle only alert. I'm so not going to work on that day!

Jonathan really wanted to sing a praise and worship song in the school talent show. The powers that be said no. It broke his heart, he cried. I mean sobbed! When I asked why he was so upset he said it was because he wanted to sing a song about Jesus, because he loved him. What an awesome kid. It made me want to cry. Who came up with separation of church and state anyway? Obviously not a Christian. I told him that it was a "talent" show and maybe he should get together with one of his friends to show the school how to throw and catch the football. That is definitely one of his talents!

I miss Katina. I miss all my friends, but I really miss Katina. I 'm used to talking to her everyday. Either during work, or on IM. The past few weeks we've both been so busy it's insane. She now has a job where she is not bored 7 1/2 hours of the day. Yipee for her. Sad for me. I'm lost. I feel like I have NO idea what is going on in any ones life. Including my own half the time.

Jason quit at GR Morris. It was a hard decision for him. He really liked the people. The position wasn't what he had anticipated. He starts his new job on Monday. Please pray for him. I'm not 100% sold on it yet. He is still thinking about going to school in April. If he does we need to move. I figured our taxes tonight and we owe 432 bucks. Doesn't that suck? I'm really not digging 2007 anymore than 2005 and 2006. I'm trying very hard to be positive, I'm prying continually, and I'm still frustrated. What else is a girl to do???

Where's the snow?

Today is a "snow day". I'm not sure where the snow is though. Most of the bushes and shurbs are not even covered! I did talk to Jason 20 minutes after he left for work and he wasn't even to I-35 yet though. So I guess the roads are pretty bad. As someone who grew up with real snow days, this just seems crazy!

First(and probably only) digi lo

I see why it has appeal. You can put one of these together pretty quick.

Some of the overlays, and such are very cute.

But it's not me.

I like "fondling" my products, touching the paper.

Feeling the lumpiness of my layouts.

I thought since I hadn't been scrapping in a while this would fill a void.

It didn't.

To me, it doesn't have personality.

What am I to do with this?

Print it out and put it in a book?

It doesn't seem the same.

Cuz' it's not.

So far, not so good

My 2007 Commitments

1. Have a family devotion time once a week-haven't done this yet
2. Tithe faithfully-nope, not this either
3. Engage in more personal prayer time-you guessed it, not this one either
4. Eat healthier, Walk more- this one a little bit, last 2 days I haven't stayed in my points range
5. Eat out less-Doing pretty good on this
6. Scrap out the house at least 1x monthly-not yet
7. Put 100.00 in savings per month-um, nope
8. Bite my tongue more, curse less-nope
9. Go to Kansas and visit my family-hopefully in March...
10. Make 2007 better than 2006- not so far..... :(

Let's all say it together, "I SUCK!" Agh, I hate being weak.

I have been scolded for not being a better blogger. I have so much I want to tell, yet at the same time nothing to tell. Does that make sense???

We are looking into moving. Jason is thinking about going back to school, if he does then we'll need to downsize. No, we are not selling any children. Just looking into an older home. Still 3-4 bedrooms, just not with the hefty rent we pay now. It'll be really hard for awhile. I'm honestly not sure if I'm ready. I'm trying to be really supportive, but it's hard. I'd be the majority of the income for 11 months. Jason would get his GI bill but it's not the same as a regular pay check. I need security. It's been a LONG time since I've had it and it's wearing on me. I need Jason to want to go to work, and to like his job. Maybe even love it. I need to know that everything is going to be OK. I feel like my life is in constant upheaval. I hate that. I feel like I have no control over anything and that any minute the floor is going to be pulled from underneath me. Overwhelmed doesn't even scratch the surface of how I feel. I want a break. A long one. From all of it.

com·mit·ment

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1. the act of committing.
2. the state of being committed.
3. the act of committing, pledging, or engaging oneself.
4. a pledge or promise; obligation:

I'm making commitments instead of resolutions this year. No one keeps resolutions. They're like a diet, it's short term. Not a lifestyle change. That's what I need, a life style change. There are a million things running through my head, things I like about myself and my life. Things I do not. I need to change them, and I need help. I'm putting my commitments on my blog so that I see them everyday, I'll be able to monitor my progress and step it up if I start slacking. And I will, I'm human. 2005 and 2006 were 2 of my worst years on record, I pray and hope that 2007 will be wonderful. A year of growth, learning, love, and happiness.

New Year, New Blog!

I'm still tryng to work out all the kinks,

but here is my new and improved blog for 2007!

I've been wanting to change it up for awhile, but haven't had the time.

I am going to be adding more stuff over the next couple of days,

since I have 2 days off! Woo-hoo!

Happy New Year!

Merry *Christ*mas!

Agh!

No title seemed right for a blog about nothing so there it is! AGH!

Not much to report. We have been off the hook crazy, busy at work this week.

Today we opened with 3100, and I went to the bank 3 times and got 3 g's each time!

CRAZY busy, new loan city in my place.

I only need to get 2 things to be done C-mas shopping!

YIPPEE! I can pick them both up in the a.m. before work if I get up early enough.

If not, there's is always Saturday:)

I need to wrap

I only have like, 6 gifts wrapped

That's it

I'm going to be a wrapping fool over the next few days

I can't wait for 4 pm on Saturday

2 1/2 days off work

Praise the Lord!

I need it so bad

I can't wait until March

I get vacation-paid!

Like a real job!

I'm not feeling 100% in the spirit

I'm trying really hard though

I'm hoping it'll hit on Saturday when I leave work

That place can be such a downer sometimes

Nothing is ever good enough

oh well

Kids went shopping for each other tonight

j and s bought for e

j and e bought for s

e and s bought for j

Fun had by all

Including me:)

Welp, i better get to bed

i was gonna wrap, but it's 10

and I'm an old lady

I need my beauty sleep

Hehehehehehehe

I made them!

If any of you read Cynthia's blog then you saw these:

Since she has a rebel her pics are much prettier, but the jist is the same.They are great:)

They are sweet, fatty, yummy goodness. Everyone said so.

You need to make some now!

I found it!!!

Now that the Christmas season is upon us the kids have been talking about Christmas cookies. Well, if you live in north Texas you know not all Christmas cookies are created equal. Ms. Kitty(Staci's mom) has passed down THE BEST homemade sugar cookie recipe. When I say the best I mean absolutely fan-tab-u-lous! Anyway, so I thought that I had lost my copy of the secret family recipe(or maybe Joe sold it....), but last night while cleaning, I FOUND IT! YIPPEEE~!! So this weekend we will be sugar cooking making fools. Thanks Kitty and Staci!

P.S. No, you can't have a copy of the recipe, I had to be in the circle of trust for YEARS before I got it!! Your day will come too....in 2011...hehehehehehhe......

I Quit!

It is ridiculous that I work more than anyone else in this family, yet I'm still expected to carry the majority of the workload at home too. Hello? Does anyone else live here? I asked "someone" to help me put away laundry, and oh my, did the world end? What? Help? I only live here and expect clean underwear, but I shouldn't under any circumstances have to actually put those underwear away.

Heaven forbid!!

I get 1 day off. 1 day! Do you know what I do on that 1 day? Clean and do laundry. All day most of the time. Now granted I do get a little break to do things like go grocery shopping! Woo-hoo! I'm foot lose and fancy free now!!! My life is consumed by work and household chores. I wish that some of the other people who lived in my house who help just a little bit. If I don't do it, it doesn't get done. I believe I have led them to think that I am the one who does it all. Which was fine when I was a SAHM. I didn't mind doing all for everyone. I can't now, it's too much. I get like an hour a day with my kids, 2 if I'm lucky. I can't do it all. And no one cares. No one cares that I work all these hours, that I still make time to go to school functions for my kids, that I'm still doing household chores, that I'm paying the bills to make sure they have a house to live in, that I'm taking care of all this "little" stuff to help everyone. It's expected of me. I feel very little appreciation. NO ONE asks how I'm doing. It's all about them. I hate my job, blah, blah, blah. Don't we all?. I don't want to work! I guess since I don't complain about my situation on a daily basis I must love it. Right?

Holy Moly! What is this? My baby is 8? I can't believe it. I could bore you with the infertility story of how it took us 18 months to get Pregnant. Talk about the all junk we had to go through, tell about how we got pregnant during the month when the Dr. said there was no chance. Then go into detail about the horrible and troubled pregnancy I had(2 hospital stays!!Before the birth!) BUT I won't!! All that matters is I have a son who ROCKS!

I mean he is awesome.

He is smart

handsome

thoughtful

nice

considerate

fun

and in general a good kid.

Does he have his moments?

Of course.

But I wouldn't trade him for anything.

I LOVE THIS BOY!!!

Happy Birthday Big Daddy!!!

We had a blast. It was great getting the special treatment. Catered food, free drinks. toilets with doors made of wood. It's high society on the admiral level at the AA center. the game was good, not near as rowdy as the playoff of game. Fun nonetheless. I'm exhausted, but I'm waiting till Jason gets home home from taking D home. So I'm on the puter catching up on e-mails and such. I feel so out of the loop.

Ten....a chi is a flat iron. it's supposed to be better for your hair cuz it has ceramic plates. it makes my hair feel pretty :)
http://www.folica.com/CHI_Ceramic_Fla_d5.html

WHICH WAY IS UP?????

THAT'S HOW I FEEL. IT'S BEEN A LONG WEEK AND IT ISN'T OVER YET. LAST NIGHT I WENT TO BED AT 9. WELL, ACTULLY I FELL ASLEEP ON THE COUCH WATCHING CHRISTMAS SHOWS WITH THE KIDS AROUND 8:30. I WENT TO MY BED AT 9. TONIGHT IS THE MAVS GAME. I SHOULD BE EXCITED, I'M NOT. I'M EXHAUSTED.

53.75

THAT'S HOW MANY HOURS I WORKED THIS WEEK, ON TOP OF ALL MY OTHER DUTIES. I EVEN CAME IN LATER THAN NORMAL A FEW DAYS, AND LEFT A LITTLE EARLIER A FEW TOO. SAD.

PLEASE LORD LET ME WIN THE LOTTERY..........

Exhausted

I think when I get done posting this I am going to bed. I'm SO tired, and it's only Wednesday. What's a girl to do?? Monday I got home from my meeting at 11pm(thanks G and L, I had an awesome time!!). Tuesday I got home at 10:30, and still had to make 2 posters for PTO and make our class basket for the silent auction look pretty! This morning I was up and out at 7:30. I took the kiddos to school, and worked in the office doing PTO stuff until 9:30 when I went to work. Jonathan's teacher said there was no reason for me to come tonight, he is doing very well. Yipee! I tiny break.

In VERY exciting news....
I GOT A CHI!!
Not just any chi, the turbo chi. i wish i could give a review, but I haven't actually used it yet. I did however get it for an awesome price. It was originally 169.99. Bed, Bath and Beyond price matched Target, so it was 79.99, THEN they take competitors ads(even after the price match!) and I got another 20% off! It came out to be 64 bucks! Can you believe it? I'm in heaven!

If you get a chance click on Melibelle's name(see the right side), and check out her new digi stuff she's been doing. It's very cool!

Katina, Staci, and Justyne: If I'm this busy and can still update, you can too!

busy

i thought i would take a moment to let ya'll my schedule this week. that way if you call, e-mail, or im and i do not respond, you'll know why.

monday-
take savannah to school 9 am
go to work 9:15-6:45
meeting with lana and galynn 8pm-???

tuesday-
take big kids to school 7:45 am
go to work 8 am-6:45 pm
pto exec board meeting 7pm-???

wednesday
take savannah to school 9 am
go to work 9:15-6:30
lifegroup 6:30-7:30
parent/reacher conferance 7:45-8

thursday
take big kids to school 7:45 am
go to work 8 am-6:45 pm
general pto meeting 6:45-7:45

friday
set up for muffins with mom 7 am
enjoy muffins with mom 7:30-7:45
go to work 8am-7pm

saturday
go to work 9:30 am-3:30 pm
pick babysiter 4 pm
jason's company c-mas party(@ a mavs game in a suite!)5:30-????

sunday
church 9am
sunday school 10:40
awanas family fun night 4:30-6pm

that's my week folks! it's a busy one, so if you don't hear from me, or you don't see a blog update, that's why.

I'm so lucky to have these "peeps"

Not just for scrapbooking anymore!

Tonight I used my cricket to make signs for the PTO. Sweet huh? It made it so super easy. This thing has endless possibilities! I'm so glad I got it. I have yet to use anything on page, but I will...soon. Don't they look great? I love that it can cut letter so big. And look how smart I was to use the negative pieces on the 2nd on and not waste paper. That O gave me a hard time though.

It is really thunder booming out! It's supposed to freeze and ice over. Texans can't drive, so it will be crazy out tomorrow on the interstate, and in town. Makes me very thankful I work only 3 miles from home. I haven't forgotten about pics from the SS exchange, i promise. I'm just lazy! Ok, not lazy. Tired and busy. Will do it soon.
Stella, are you reading this? I saw on Sherri's board you were in FW. Are you still here? If so give me a holler, maybe we can meet for dinner, I'd love that!!!!

Christmas Spirit

Yup, that's my baby girl under a tree. Poor thing, she was a very good sport about it all. We decided this year to get a real tree. Once purchased we of course had to get it home. We were going to tie it to the roof, but I frankly I didn't have the patience for that. I laid down one of the back seats, told Savannah to scoot over and wa-la! It fit. She wasn't very comfortable for about 8 minutes while we drove home, but she made it through.

Crying

that's what i've felt like doing all day. it's so not like me. i mean i'm a sentimental crier, movies and such, but to in general just cry? no way. i don't do public displays of emotion. all day, i'll i've wanted to do is sob uncontrollably. but i haven't. what good would it do? it's pointless. it doesn't fix anything, it certainly doesn't make me feel better. it'd just make me feel crappier, cause i'd get a headache. i wish it would just go away, but it hasn't. i've been trying to shake it all day. and it's still here. part of me says, cry. then the feeling would go away. my other part says, stop being such a baby and suck it up. for those of you who don't know me very well, suck it up is my motto. suck it up and pray. that's what i say. can't change anything any other way. so i'm sucking, i'm going to try and busy myself so i don't think about the undeniable, uncontrollable urge to break down.

Yup, that's me!

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Nightmare

i had a nightmare light night that Savannah was hit by a car. and no one cared, but galynn. the car of girls who hit her ran off. i called 911 but they said all their ambulances were in east texas and they "might" be able to see her if we brought her in. bring her in, i screamed? she was ran over, thrown up in the air and landed on her head, and you want me to move her! she woke up slightly and said nothing hurt, so I picked her up and began walking to the nearest ER. Along the way i ran into galynn and her husband and they helped. i saw my mom too, but she was too busy smoking to help. after this i woke up. i immediately rolled over and put my arm around Savannah(who was of course in my bed!) and snuggled with her. I hate dreams like this. i used to have them abut misty all the time. i hope i don't start having them again. anyway, i just needed to get it out before i forget. tomorrow is turkey day folks. yippeee~!

It's just another manic monday......

The devil created Mondays. i have no doubt. today i went to work at 8:15 and i left at 7:45. gotta love it. ya, right. it makes for a LONG day. super long. we did around 45 transactions which is alot, with 10 new loans. crazy. it's only going to get worse the closer to Christmas it gets. long hours, cranky people, stressed out angel. oh joy.

in case you haven't noticed, my shift key is busted. i'm going to be flying lower case for while. i'm hoping the tax return god will bless me and i can get an imac.

Jason gave me my Christmas gift early. he rocks it rocks. i love it. i can't wait till my scrap room is clean so i use use it more.

I CAN'T WAIT TILL THANKSGIVING!

I LOVE THANKSGIVING.

I LOVE LOTS OF PEOPLE

AND LOTS OF FOOD

I LOVE A HOUSE FULL OF PEOPLE

THE NOISE

THE LOVE

THE FRIENDS

I LOVE IT

I CAN'T WAIT

My son was invited to a sleepover.......a girl's sleepover.....

Last night Jonathan gave me an invitation to Loren's party. Loren is one of his "girlfriends". I asked if we wanted to go and he said yes. I told him I would pick up a gift today and daddy would drop him off.
"But, momma I want to pick out Loren's present."
HUH? Never in 8 years of buying birthday gifts has Jonathan actually picked out the gift, or even wanted too. When I asked him why he said he wanted to make sure it was special. Umm, okay. When I get to the party to pick him up, he is the only boy except the the girls' brother. Loren comes up to me and says
" Can Jonathan stay the night at my house? I am having a slumber party after the bowling is over".
HUH? (yes, again!) I tell her I have to think about it. Then Jonathan comes and asks me! Holy Moly! Then Loren and her friend pull Loren's mom in to the corner gigging.
"What are they doing", I'm thinking.
So Milla(loren's mom)comes over and says, the girls just asked me if Jonathan can stay the night. I tell her that Jonathan and Loren already asked me too. We laugh, we talk, and we decide that Jonathan can go over there for the evening and I'll pick him up at 9. Can you believe this? I thought this was over.
Later Jonathan was sitting at a table alone. The girls were running and playing trying to get his attention. I called him to me, and asked him if want his was doing, and if anything was wrong.
"Mom, I was watching the biggest college football games in history"
Oh. Maybe I don't have so much to worry about after all........

the mezaoic era is the age of reptiles

that's what my 7 year old taught me today. i know right. the only other time i've heard that word is on friends, when ross talks about his work. i love friends. they are coming out with the whole series in one box set.(HINT HINT JASON). it would be great if i got it for christmas. anyway, i'm getting side tracked. tonight we are driving in the van and this is the conversation we have:

elize: aunt angel, jonathan got dumped today
me: dumped? what do you mean dumped?
elize: (groan) you know, dumped by a GIRL!
me: jonathan, you had a girlfriend?
elize: yea! he had 7, all the girls like him
me: 7 girlfriends? why did you get dumped?
elize: because he won't play with them, or eat by them at lunch and he only cares about football
me: (HUGE EXHALE of relief), well that's ok, you don't need girlfriend, you're too young
jonathan: i know, i don't like them, but they always stare at me at lunch though.......

and so it begins

Tuesday

I woke up the morning with an awful(and I mean horrible) migraine. Throbbing, pain so intense you can't speak, vomiting( you wanted to know that right?). I called in to work, I couldn't go in that early. I ended up sitting under the shower head with hot water pouring down on me for about 30 minutes. I took some drugs(alieve), and laid down. After a few hours it had sub-sided and I went to work.

At work I found out that even though our corporate office messed up on our monthly store numbers, they refuse to fix(for what reason i don't know). Therefore we do not get an award that we earned. My DM is HOT about it. No one else really seems to care. It would be to much trouble to fix, they say. Thanks for that morale booster.......

Tonight was our first executive PTO meeting. It lasted longer than I thought it would, but was so worth it. We have a lot of stuff going on, or that we are trying to get going on. It's the school's first year, so there are lots of kinks to be worked out. The ladies are wonderful and I think we'll really be able to do a lot this year.

bible banger

i hate that term. i think it's disrespectful and ugly. i never wanted to be called that, so i don't share my faith. most of my friends are not Christians so i didn't/don't want to offend. i am pretty active in my church though. i attend life group on wednesday, i teach and attend service on sunday mornings. or at least i did. i've been in a spiritual funk lately. this past wednesday was the first time i'd been to life group in about 6-8 weeks. i got lazy on sunday mornings and would only go to teach my kiddos during the second service, but hadn't been attending the first service for myself. today i woke up bright eyed at 8:15, so i went to first service. 6-8 weeks of no spiritual growth, and no one noticed. except me. and God i'm sure. what does that say for what kind of Christian i was(am)? that i can go almost 2 months with out much faith based interaction and no one noticed. that is sad. it makes me sad. i truly believe that Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. i believe that he died on the cross for my sins(and yours). i believe that he will rise again. so why don't i say it? shout it from the roof tops? i am not ashamed. if people ask i will tell them i am the daughter of a king, but i don't put it out there. i have my church friends and my non-church friends. and that's not right. i want to be just one one angel. i want people to know by my actions that i'm a believer, i don't want them to even ask. i went to a leaders meeting tonight at church. i didn't really want to go. i figured i'm on such a roll with LG and service, why not? i am so glad i did. it truly gave me the kick in the rear i was needing. i was able to express my concern about something. that made me feel better. what made me feel even better was that i was approached by 3 people thanking me for expressing my concern, and validating how i felt. i wasn't alone. a light bulb, had been switched on, a door opened. i felt relieved. in an instant i felt like i was no longer alone. it all fell in to place. i needed to be back in LG, i needed to be at first service, i need that God time. "people" say you can "believe in God" even when you don't go to church. and that's true. there is a difference between just believing in something and actively pursuing a relationship. just believing in God will not get you to heaven. i am so thankful to be back on my walk with Christ. to feel whole again. it truly makes a difference. i feel like a little piece of my broken heart is unbroken, like a void has been filled. you don't even realize how much you miss Him until he has you back and safe in His loving arms. until he reaches out and says, welcome home my child, I've been waiting for you

PTO VP

Yup that's me! Can you believe it. I can't say it was a fair race b/c I was the only one running. They had to vote for me. There was 3 people running but, 1 didn't show up(you must be present to win..hehehe), and the other decided to run for a different office. So it was me. I'm excited. the school is great, for the most part. I love Jonathan's teacher. There just needs to be more parental involvement. There needs to be more "Angel" there.

Tonight was our district par-tay(as we have been refering to it). It was a BLAST. I think everyone had a great time. Me, Thomas, and Roy(my DM) did some shots. The ASM from Mansfield was a hoot! She brought her brother who about got us kicked outta the place! I think Sam and Sister made some pretty good money off of us. Some bailed early and some didn't show, but a great time was had by most!

Just when you think that you're going to pull your head above water, something pulls on your legs, and your drowning.......again.

I got this in my e-mail today.......Yea, he rocks

Angel,

Your beautiful, Your beautiful, your beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face, in a crowded place, and asked to marry you.
I'll always be with you.




Jason L. Hallock
Vice President
GR Morris and Associates
PH: (877) 457-9995
FAX: (877) 457-9998
www.gr-morris.com

3:35

went to lunch

got some christmas gifts

no cleaning done yet

don't care that there is no cleaning done yet

10:43 a.m. check in

just got out of bed

gonna do some online shopping

starving,

looking forward to lunch

A day off

Yup, that's what I have tomorrow. I don't know what I'm going to do. I have lots I want to do, but I don't want to make any real plans. I know I want to sleep in. That's about it. I have no days off. I work Monday-Saturday with Church on Sunday. I can't fathom what I'll do with a whole day off. One thing I can be sure of it will go by to quickly. Here's a list of the things I'd like to do tomorrow, We'll see tomorrow night how many of them(if any) get done.

**Sleep in
**Go to the Mattel outlet store
**Do some Christmas shopping
**Clean/Organize Jonathan and Savananh's room
**Move my SB stuff into this room(yes, it's still in my room)
**Clean and rearrange my room
**Wash/fold/hang/put away all laundry
**Go to lunch with my sister
**Go to Hobby Lobby/Mike's/Joann's
**Finish shopping for my Secret Santa
**Wrap some Christmas gifts
*****SCRAPBOOK!*****

I'm tired just looking at that list. I'll need another day off just to re-coup!

exhausted, tired, and wiped-out

What a busy day! We have been re-arranging like crazy. Just about everything and everyone that could be moved was! We put Savannah in with Jonathan, Misty and her girls in Savannah's old room, the computer(and hopefully by the end of the night) my scrap stuff into Misty's old room. We are also moving the TV from my room into the living room, and taking the TV from there and putting it into my room. Wheew! Makes me even more tired thinking about it. Why you ask? Privacy! The bonus room that Misty and her girls were in doesn't have a door. Their room was always open to anyone who walked into the house. They didn't have a closet either, so they used mine and Jason's. Also, the computer and the TV with the DVD player was in our bedroom. It pretty much made our room the central hang out of the house. Which is not a bad thing, but we just wanted our own space. So, now Misty and her girls have their own room(with their own closet!), and since the computer and the DVD player are not in our room anymore Jason and I will have a little more privacy as well. I still have to move my scrap stuff in here, and clean Jonathan and Savannah's room, but the bulk of the work is done. It was hard, but I think everyone will be happier in the end.

AKA

Also known as

i am known as lots o things

most good some bad.....

if asked my friends and loved one to describe me in 1 word

you would mostly likely hear:

honest

blunt

opinionated

yup, that's me

i have only recently begun to learn when to keep my mouth shut

it was a hard lesson

people don't always want to hear what I have to say

BUT

if you ask

i will tell

I am

Veracious

WAY outside the box here!

i don't do artsy

i don't do circles over the eye

everything about this page is not me!

notice all the A's are orange

sweet!

Who am I really?

i am a bunch of things. anyone who knows me, knows that. i chose just 5 for this layout. some good, some bad. this was the first challenge from the beyond appearances clan

http://beyond-appearances.blogspot.com/

they are similar to the effers, but are only on dare 7,

so i *may* have a chance to catch up!

I used

american crafts paper

doodlebug stickers

heidi swapp jewels

and my black zig marker

that's it!

lots of things out of comfort zone on here:

my handwriting

outlining my letter stickers

cutting those darn flowers by hand

making the pic just a little slanted

(so hard for me!)

Jonathan

My bubba

My buddy

My future NFL quarterback

My firstborn

This boy is awesome. He's going through a difficult phase right now.

I think it's that I'm about to be 8,

I'm going from being "little" kid, to being a BIG kid,

and I'm going to test my limits phase.

And, oh Boy, is he ever!

Even with his limit testing.

He is awesome.

He is polite

kind

sweet

thoughtful

smart

considerate

He is a

child of God

snuggler

brother

son

nephew

cousin

A die hard lover of football

He knows more trivia at 7 and 11 months

then most grown men!

Wanna know who won the first superbowl?

Ask him!

Who won the second?

Yup, he knows that one too!

He knows who the Bills played in each of their Superbowl losses

AND

what the score was!

He can name at least one player(past or present)

From every time in the NFL

He's amazing.

He's also book smart, this little guy has a thirst of knowledge that

only a 2nd grader can have.

He asks questions that I have never even thought about.

His grades are beyond worthy of bragging

Art 98%

Character Education 100%

Computer 92%

Health 100%

Language Arts 99%

Math 93%

Music 100%

PE 100%

Science 100%

Social Studies 99%

Spelling 99%

World Cultures 100%

I love this child more then I can even express in words.

He was totally worth the wait, worth the infertility work, worth the throwing up 6 times a day for 6 months, worth the 3 hospital stays,worth the pre-term labor scare,

worth the 16 hours of non-medicated pain.

I want to keep him with me always.

I dread the day he goes to Middle School

then High school

I get nausous thinking about college

And marriage?

What if he doesn't marry the right girl?

As he grows he makes me have more respect for my parents and grandparents.

I thought my children growing up would be easier,

but it's not

It's harder

Because

everyday

he

is one day

closer

to leaving me.

I'm a bad mom

Yup, that's me. Bad Mom Angel(or BMA as I'd now like to be called). Last night was halloween. I didn't take pictures. Didn't even think about it. And now, thinking back on it I'm not really sorry I didn't. I mean how many halloweens do I need pictures of? I don't "believe" in halloween I only let the kids "celebrate" it b/c it's all around them, and quite frankly I don't care either way. I even got comments at work from my DM and RM b/c I didn't decorate the store for halloween. I told them, " I don't do halloween". They both looked at me like I'd grown a 2nd head. I mean really, it has to be one of the dumbest holidays. It means NOTHING. We "celebrate" NOTHING. Expensive costumes, cakie makeup, and enough candy to rot your teeth out. As a mother who currently does not have dental insurance for her kiddos. I hate this "holiday". However, today I went to Hobby Lobby and they had all their Christmas stuff out! Now that's a holiday I can get into! It totally put me in the mood(down Jason, the mood for Christmas!) I can't wait to decorate the tree, to hear carols walking through Target, to see the children's faces light up as gifts "appear" under the tree.
Yeah, I'm a Christmas girl :)