I suppose I should update...

So much to update. I can't even imagine where to start.

I'm watching GA right now. It's not near as good as I hoped or anticipated. That sucks.

We are in the new house. It's so much bigger than the other. I can't hear the kids at all when they are at the back of the house. It's grans :O)

I'm jumping the weight loss wagon again :O( I swore I wouldn't gain the weight back after Harrison, but I have. Not all of it. 25 pounds. My goal is to get it off by the end of the year. I want to start 2010 the same weight I started 2009. Going to start hitting up the gym, and eating better. I have already cut down on the cocaine..I mean Pepsi! Lol. Pespi is so my drug of choice!

More later...

Hurt

My sister announced today on myspace that she is bi sexual. I expressed that I thought it was a cowardly way to tell me. That I was hurt by her not telling me in person. That I thought she should have given more thought to her girls before doing this. Guess what? I am the bad guy.

Her friends are bashing me left and right for not supporting her. Saying I am really pissed b/c she is bi. Saying I don't know what unconditional love is. And you know what hurts the most? Misty is letting them. After all the times I have stood up for her, she is letting them beat me down like I have down something wrong by having my feelings hurt.

I didn't say one word either way about the bi thing. I said I was hurt by finding out that way. That she should be with a girl for more than a week before telling her daughter. I am not a "Yes Man", nor will I ever be. Just b/c I don't jump for joy and say, You go Girl, all the sudden I don't love her? B/c I think of the other elements of this announcement I don't know what unconditional love is?

I am the ONLY person in my sister's life who has loved her unconditionally. The only one, and she knows it. She claims to love me like no other, but couldn't tell me this? Why? If she has truly thought this through and is comfortable with her decision then sitting me down and telling me like an adult shouldn't have been that hard.

I find it irresponsible that she would wait months before introducing her boyfriend to her children, but a week after meeting this girl she feels comfortable describing "bi-sexual" to her 10 year old? But see I can't say this to her b/c then I'm not being supportive(according to her "friends") see I am not allowed to have my own opinion. I'm just supposed to be that "Yes Man" again.

I just don't understand why I am not allowed to be hurt? Since when does someone hurting YOUR feelings make YOU the bad guy? I guess since today....

Tara inspired me!

I feel like I don't have much to blog about, but I know that's really not true. So I shall start my rambling...

The first game of football hasn't started yet and I'm already burnt out! The first game is Saturday the 12th and the last isn't until Halloween!! AGH! We only have 3 home games which stinks. I choose the shirts this year, so they are cuter and more cost effective than last years :O)

Savannah starts gymnastics on the 15th. She will go Tuesday and Thursday during the time Jonathan is at football practice which is sweet. She is pretty excited. She hasn't done anything extra since Jonathan played Flag football in 1st grade and she was a cheerleader. I have been lazy about her reading so I need to be more diligent about that. She was in the top of her class last year and I don't want her to slip.

Big H is doing awesome. He standing for long periods of time, but he's showing no interest is taking steps. He's eating almost all table food. Fruits, grilled chz, cereal, pancakes..I still try to give him baby food, sometimes he eats it, sometimes he doesn't. It just depends on his mood. Grammie said he is really good for her during the day. He LOVES her. The other day he was standing at the front door and when he saw her car pull out he became visibly excited. Another time I asked him if he was ready to stay with GG and he turned his head towards her, so he knows who she is. I think that is so awesome.

Jason is getting into the school thing. He is really liking his Chem Lab, but the Chem class is still taking all of his focus to keep up. Soc, Comp II, and Med Term are nothing. He's having a hard time adjusting to being a "kept man". I come home from work and I hear...Harrison was crazy today...It makes me laugh. HELLO, I've been doing that for 10 years, I don't feel bad about your 10 days!

Work is good. I got my bonus. I didn't get to spoil myself like I had hoped. Bills, and family needs came first. Oh well, such is life. I really enjoy my job, sometimes I get frustrated with one of my bosses, but I just sweep it under the rug. I know it's her personality and in general we get along well. Josh is always telling me he gets tons of compliments about me from other agents, clients, title companies, appraisers, home inspectors. All of our vendors adore me. The other day I heard him tell one, in a joking manner, that he was no longer passing along compliments to me b/c I was starting to get a big head. Ha! Starting? I was born with a big head!!!