Winter Blues

Thanks to everyone who e-mailed or called me after my past few posts. It's nice to know people worry if I'm not my normal peppy self. I'm just feeling blah. No real rhyme or reason. Just blah. I think it's the winter blues. The weather is so depressing. I of course have to work for a company that doesn't close, no matter how bad the weather. I'm waiting for the emergency vehicle only alert. I'm so not going to work on that day!

Jonathan really wanted to sing a praise and worship song in the school talent show. The powers that be said no. It broke his heart, he cried. I mean sobbed! When I asked why he was so upset he said it was because he wanted to sing a song about Jesus, because he loved him. What an awesome kid. It made me want to cry. Who came up with separation of church and state anyway? Obviously not a Christian. I told him that it was a "talent" show and maybe he should get together with one of his friends to show the school how to throw and catch the football. That is definitely one of his talents!

I miss Katina. I miss all my friends, but I really miss Katina. I 'm used to talking to her everyday. Either during work, or on IM. The past few weeks we've both been so busy it's insane. She now has a job where she is not bored 7 1/2 hours of the day. Yipee for her. Sad for me. I'm lost. I feel like I have NO idea what is going on in any ones life. Including my own half the time.

Jason quit at GR Morris. It was a hard decision for him. He really liked the people. The position wasn't what he had anticipated. He starts his new job on Monday. Please pray for him. I'm not 100% sold on it yet. He is still thinking about going to school in April. If he does we need to move. I figured our taxes tonight and we owe 432 bucks. Doesn't that suck? I'm really not digging 2007 anymore than 2005 and 2006. I'm trying very hard to be positive, I'm prying continually, and I'm still frustrated. What else is a girl to do???

Where's the snow?

Today is a "snow day". I'm not sure where the snow is though. Most of the bushes and shurbs are not even covered! I did talk to Jason 20 minutes after he left for work and he wasn't even to I-35 yet though. So I guess the roads are pretty bad. As someone who grew up with real snow days, this just seems crazy!

First(and probably only) digi lo

I see why it has appeal. You can put one of these together pretty quick.

Some of the overlays, and such are very cute.

But it's not me.

I like "fondling" my products, touching the paper.

Feeling the lumpiness of my layouts.

I thought since I hadn't been scrapping in a while this would fill a void.

It didn't.

To me, it doesn't have personality.

What am I to do with this?

Print it out and put it in a book?

It doesn't seem the same.

Cuz' it's not.

So far, not so good

My 2007 Commitments

1. Have a family devotion time once a week-haven't done this yet
2. Tithe faithfully-nope, not this either
3. Engage in more personal prayer time-you guessed it, not this one either
4. Eat healthier, Walk more- this one a little bit, last 2 days I haven't stayed in my points range
5. Eat out less-Doing pretty good on this
6. Scrap out the house at least 1x monthly-not yet
7. Put 100.00 in savings per month-um, nope
8. Bite my tongue more, curse less-nope
9. Go to Kansas and visit my family-hopefully in March...
10. Make 2007 better than 2006- not so far..... :(

Let's all say it together, "I SUCK!" Agh, I hate being weak.

I have been scolded for not being a better blogger. I have so much I want to tell, yet at the same time nothing to tell. Does that make sense???

We are looking into moving. Jason is thinking about going back to school, if he does then we'll need to downsize. No, we are not selling any children. Just looking into an older home. Still 3-4 bedrooms, just not with the hefty rent we pay now. It'll be really hard for awhile. I'm honestly not sure if I'm ready. I'm trying to be really supportive, but it's hard. I'd be the majority of the income for 11 months. Jason would get his GI bill but it's not the same as a regular pay check. I need security. It's been a LONG time since I've had it and it's wearing on me. I need Jason to want to go to work, and to like his job. Maybe even love it. I need to know that everything is going to be OK. I feel like my life is in constant upheaval. I hate that. I feel like I have no control over anything and that any minute the floor is going to be pulled from underneath me. Overwhelmed doesn't even scratch the surface of how I feel. I want a break. A long one. From all of it.

com·mit·ment

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1. the act of committing.
2. the state of being committed.
3. the act of committing, pledging, or engaging oneself.
4. a pledge or promise; obligation:

I'm making commitments instead of resolutions this year. No one keeps resolutions. They're like a diet, it's short term. Not a lifestyle change. That's what I need, a life style change. There are a million things running through my head, things I like about myself and my life. Things I do not. I need to change them, and I need help. I'm putting my commitments on my blog so that I see them everyday, I'll be able to monitor my progress and step it up if I start slacking. And I will, I'm human. 2005 and 2006 were 2 of my worst years on record, I pray and hope that 2007 will be wonderful. A year of growth, learning, love, and happiness.

New Year, New Blog!

I'm still tryng to work out all the kinks,

but here is my new and improved blog for 2007!

I've been wanting to change it up for awhile, but haven't had the time.

I am going to be adding more stuff over the next couple of days,

since I have 2 days off! Woo-hoo!

Happy New Year!

Merry *Christ*mas!

Agh!

No title seemed right for a blog about nothing so there it is! AGH!

Not much to report. We have been off the hook crazy, busy at work this week.

Today we opened with 3100, and I went to the bank 3 times and got 3 g's each time!

CRAZY busy, new loan city in my place.

I only need to get 2 things to be done C-mas shopping!

YIPPEE! I can pick them both up in the a.m. before work if I get up early enough.

If not, there's is always Saturday:)

I need to wrap

I only have like, 6 gifts wrapped

That's it

I'm going to be a wrapping fool over the next few days

I can't wait for 4 pm on Saturday

2 1/2 days off work

Praise the Lord!

I need it so bad

I can't wait until March

I get vacation-paid!

Like a real job!

I'm not feeling 100% in the spirit

I'm trying really hard though

I'm hoping it'll hit on Saturday when I leave work

That place can be such a downer sometimes

Nothing is ever good enough

oh well

Kids went shopping for each other tonight

j and s bought for e

j and e bought for s

e and s bought for j

Fun had by all

Including me:)

Welp, i better get to bed

i was gonna wrap, but it's 10

and I'm an old lady

I need my beauty sleep

Hehehehehehehe

I made them!

If any of you read Cynthia's blog then you saw these:

Since she has a rebel her pics are much prettier, but the jist is the same.They are great:)

They are sweet, fatty, yummy goodness. Everyone said so.

You need to make some now!

I found it!!!

Now that the Christmas season is upon us the kids have been talking about Christmas cookies. Well, if you live in north Texas you know not all Christmas cookies are created equal. Ms. Kitty(Staci's mom) has passed down THE BEST homemade sugar cookie recipe. When I say the best I mean absolutely fan-tab-u-lous! Anyway, so I thought that I had lost my copy of the secret family recipe(or maybe Joe sold it....), but last night while cleaning, I FOUND IT! YIPPEEE~!! So this weekend we will be sugar cooking making fools. Thanks Kitty and Staci!

P.S. No, you can't have a copy of the recipe, I had to be in the circle of trust for YEARS before I got it!! Your day will come too....in 2011...hehehehehehhe......

I Quit!

It is ridiculous that I work more than anyone else in this family, yet I'm still expected to carry the majority of the workload at home too. Hello? Does anyone else live here? I asked "someone" to help me put away laundry, and oh my, did the world end? What? Help? I only live here and expect clean underwear, but I shouldn't under any circumstances have to actually put those underwear away.

Heaven forbid!!

I get 1 day off. 1 day! Do you know what I do on that 1 day? Clean and do laundry. All day most of the time. Now granted I do get a little break to do things like go grocery shopping! Woo-hoo! I'm foot lose and fancy free now!!! My life is consumed by work and household chores. I wish that some of the other people who lived in my house who help just a little bit. If I don't do it, it doesn't get done. I believe I have led them to think that I am the one who does it all. Which was fine when I was a SAHM. I didn't mind doing all for everyone. I can't now, it's too much. I get like an hour a day with my kids, 2 if I'm lucky. I can't do it all. And no one cares. No one cares that I work all these hours, that I still make time to go to school functions for my kids, that I'm still doing household chores, that I'm paying the bills to make sure they have a house to live in, that I'm taking care of all this "little" stuff to help everyone. It's expected of me. I feel very little appreciation. NO ONE asks how I'm doing. It's all about them. I hate my job, blah, blah, blah. Don't we all?. I don't want to work! I guess since I don't complain about my situation on a daily basis I must love it. Right?

Holy Moly! What is this? My baby is 8? I can't believe it. I could bore you with the infertility story of how it took us 18 months to get Pregnant. Talk about the all junk we had to go through, tell about how we got pregnant during the month when the Dr. said there was no chance. Then go into detail about the horrible and troubled pregnancy I had(2 hospital stays!!Before the birth!) BUT I won't!! All that matters is I have a son who ROCKS!

I mean he is awesome.

He is smart

handsome

thoughtful

nice

considerate

fun

and in general a good kid.

Does he have his moments?

Of course.

But I wouldn't trade him for anything.

I LOVE THIS BOY!!!

Happy Birthday Big Daddy!!!

We had a blast. It was great getting the special treatment. Catered food, free drinks. toilets with doors made of wood. It's high society on the admiral level at the AA center. the game was good, not near as rowdy as the playoff of game. Fun nonetheless. I'm exhausted, but I'm waiting till Jason gets home home from taking D home. So I'm on the puter catching up on e-mails and such. I feel so out of the loop.

Ten....a chi is a flat iron. it's supposed to be better for your hair cuz it has ceramic plates. it makes my hair feel pretty :)
http://www.folica.com/CHI_Ceramic_Fla_d5.html

WHICH WAY IS UP?????

THAT'S HOW I FEEL. IT'S BEEN A LONG WEEK AND IT ISN'T OVER YET. LAST NIGHT I WENT TO BED AT 9. WELL, ACTULLY I FELL ASLEEP ON THE COUCH WATCHING CHRISTMAS SHOWS WITH THE KIDS AROUND 8:30. I WENT TO MY BED AT 9. TONIGHT IS THE MAVS GAME. I SHOULD BE EXCITED, I'M NOT. I'M EXHAUSTED.

53.75

THAT'S HOW MANY HOURS I WORKED THIS WEEK, ON TOP OF ALL MY OTHER DUTIES. I EVEN CAME IN LATER THAN NORMAL A FEW DAYS, AND LEFT A LITTLE EARLIER A FEW TOO. SAD.

PLEASE LORD LET ME WIN THE LOTTERY..........

Exhausted

I think when I get done posting this I am going to bed. I'm SO tired, and it's only Wednesday. What's a girl to do?? Monday I got home from my meeting at 11pm(thanks G and L, I had an awesome time!!). Tuesday I got home at 10:30, and still had to make 2 posters for PTO and make our class basket for the silent auction look pretty! This morning I was up and out at 7:30. I took the kiddos to school, and worked in the office doing PTO stuff until 9:30 when I went to work. Jonathan's teacher said there was no reason for me to come tonight, he is doing very well. Yipee! I tiny break.

In VERY exciting news....
I GOT A CHI!!
Not just any chi, the turbo chi. i wish i could give a review, but I haven't actually used it yet. I did however get it for an awesome price. It was originally 169.99. Bed, Bath and Beyond price matched Target, so it was 79.99, THEN they take competitors ads(even after the price match!) and I got another 20% off! It came out to be 64 bucks! Can you believe it? I'm in heaven!

If you get a chance click on Melibelle's name(see the right side), and check out her new digi stuff she's been doing. It's very cool!

Katina, Staci, and Justyne: If I'm this busy and can still update, you can too!

busy

i thought i would take a moment to let ya'll my schedule this week. that way if you call, e-mail, or im and i do not respond, you'll know why.

monday-
take savannah to school 9 am
go to work 9:15-6:45
meeting with lana and galynn 8pm-???

tuesday-
take big kids to school 7:45 am
go to work 8 am-6:45 pm
pto exec board meeting 7pm-???

wednesday
take savannah to school 9 am
go to work 9:15-6:30
lifegroup 6:30-7:30
parent/reacher conferance 7:45-8

thursday
take big kids to school 7:45 am
go to work 8 am-6:45 pm
general pto meeting 6:45-7:45

friday
set up for muffins with mom 7 am
enjoy muffins with mom 7:30-7:45
go to work 8am-7pm

saturday
go to work 9:30 am-3:30 pm
pick babysiter 4 pm
jason's company c-mas party(@ a mavs game in a suite!)5:30-????

sunday
church 9am
sunday school 10:40
awanas family fun night 4:30-6pm

that's my week folks! it's a busy one, so if you don't hear from me, or you don't see a blog update, that's why.

I'm so lucky to have these "peeps"

Not just for scrapbooking anymore!

Tonight I used my cricket to make signs for the PTO. Sweet huh? It made it so super easy. This thing has endless possibilities! I'm so glad I got it. I have yet to use anything on page, but I will...soon. Don't they look great? I love that it can cut letter so big. And look how smart I was to use the negative pieces on the 2nd on and not waste paper. That O gave me a hard time though.

It is really thunder booming out! It's supposed to freeze and ice over. Texans can't drive, so it will be crazy out tomorrow on the interstate, and in town. Makes me very thankful I work only 3 miles from home. I haven't forgotten about pics from the SS exchange, i promise. I'm just lazy! Ok, not lazy. Tired and busy. Will do it soon.
Stella, are you reading this? I saw on Sherri's board you were in FW. Are you still here? If so give me a holler, maybe we can meet for dinner, I'd love that!!!!

Christmas Spirit

Yup, that's my baby girl under a tree. Poor thing, she was a very good sport about it all. We decided this year to get a real tree. Once purchased we of course had to get it home. We were going to tie it to the roof, but I frankly I didn't have the patience for that. I laid down one of the back seats, told Savannah to scoot over and wa-la! It fit. She wasn't very comfortable for about 8 minutes while we drove home, but she made it through.

Crying

that's what i've felt like doing all day. it's so not like me. i mean i'm a sentimental crier, movies and such, but to in general just cry? no way. i don't do public displays of emotion. all day, i'll i've wanted to do is sob uncontrollably. but i haven't. what good would it do? it's pointless. it doesn't fix anything, it certainly doesn't make me feel better. it'd just make me feel crappier, cause i'd get a headache. i wish it would just go away, but it hasn't. i've been trying to shake it all day. and it's still here. part of me says, cry. then the feeling would go away. my other part says, stop being such a baby and suck it up. for those of you who don't know me very well, suck it up is my motto. suck it up and pray. that's what i say. can't change anything any other way. so i'm sucking, i'm going to try and busy myself so i don't think about the undeniable, uncontrollable urge to break down.

Yup, that's me!

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Nightmare

i had a nightmare light night that Savannah was hit by a car. and no one cared, but galynn. the car of girls who hit her ran off. i called 911 but they said all their ambulances were in east texas and they "might" be able to see her if we brought her in. bring her in, i screamed? she was ran over, thrown up in the air and landed on her head, and you want me to move her! she woke up slightly and said nothing hurt, so I picked her up and began walking to the nearest ER. Along the way i ran into galynn and her husband and they helped. i saw my mom too, but she was too busy smoking to help. after this i woke up. i immediately rolled over and put my arm around Savannah(who was of course in my bed!) and snuggled with her. I hate dreams like this. i used to have them abut misty all the time. i hope i don't start having them again. anyway, i just needed to get it out before i forget. tomorrow is turkey day folks. yippeee~!

It's just another manic monday......

The devil created Mondays. i have no doubt. today i went to work at 8:15 and i left at 7:45. gotta love it. ya, right. it makes for a LONG day. super long. we did around 45 transactions which is alot, with 10 new loans. crazy. it's only going to get worse the closer to Christmas it gets. long hours, cranky people, stressed out angel. oh joy.

in case you haven't noticed, my shift key is busted. i'm going to be flying lower case for while. i'm hoping the tax return god will bless me and i can get an imac.

Jason gave me my Christmas gift early. he rocks it rocks. i love it. i can't wait till my scrap room is clean so i use use it more.

I CAN'T WAIT TILL THANKSGIVING!

I LOVE THANKSGIVING.

I LOVE LOTS OF PEOPLE

AND LOTS OF FOOD

I LOVE A HOUSE FULL OF PEOPLE

THE NOISE

THE LOVE

THE FRIENDS

I LOVE IT

I CAN'T WAIT

My son was invited to a sleepover.......a girl's sleepover.....

Last night Jonathan gave me an invitation to Loren's party. Loren is one of his "girlfriends". I asked if we wanted to go and he said yes. I told him I would pick up a gift today and daddy would drop him off.
"But, momma I want to pick out Loren's present."
HUH? Never in 8 years of buying birthday gifts has Jonathan actually picked out the gift, or even wanted too. When I asked him why he said he wanted to make sure it was special. Umm, okay. When I get to the party to pick him up, he is the only boy except the the girls' brother. Loren comes up to me and says
" Can Jonathan stay the night at my house? I am having a slumber party after the bowling is over".
HUH? (yes, again!) I tell her I have to think about it. Then Jonathan comes and asks me! Holy Moly! Then Loren and her friend pull Loren's mom in to the corner gigging.
"What are they doing", I'm thinking.
So Milla(loren's mom)comes over and says, the girls just asked me if Jonathan can stay the night. I tell her that Jonathan and Loren already asked me too. We laugh, we talk, and we decide that Jonathan can go over there for the evening and I'll pick him up at 9. Can you believe this? I thought this was over.
Later Jonathan was sitting at a table alone. The girls were running and playing trying to get his attention. I called him to me, and asked him if want his was doing, and if anything was wrong.
"Mom, I was watching the biggest college football games in history"
Oh. Maybe I don't have so much to worry about after all........

the mezaoic era is the age of reptiles

that's what my 7 year old taught me today. i know right. the only other time i've heard that word is on friends, when ross talks about his work. i love friends. they are coming out with the whole series in one box set.(HINT HINT JASON). it would be great if i got it for christmas. anyway, i'm getting side tracked. tonight we are driving in the van and this is the conversation we have:

elize: aunt angel, jonathan got dumped today
me: dumped? what do you mean dumped?
elize: (groan) you know, dumped by a GIRL!
me: jonathan, you had a girlfriend?
elize: yea! he had 7, all the girls like him
me: 7 girlfriends? why did you get dumped?
elize: because he won't play with them, or eat by them at lunch and he only cares about football
me: (HUGE EXHALE of relief), well that's ok, you don't need girlfriend, you're too young
jonathan: i know, i don't like them, but they always stare at me at lunch though.......

and so it begins

Tuesday

I woke up the morning with an awful(and I mean horrible) migraine. Throbbing, pain so intense you can't speak, vomiting( you wanted to know that right?). I called in to work, I couldn't go in that early. I ended up sitting under the shower head with hot water pouring down on me for about 30 minutes. I took some drugs(alieve), and laid down. After a few hours it had sub-sided and I went to work.

At work I found out that even though our corporate office messed up on our monthly store numbers, they refuse to fix(for what reason i don't know). Therefore we do not get an award that we earned. My DM is HOT about it. No one else really seems to care. It would be to much trouble to fix, they say. Thanks for that morale booster.......

Tonight was our first executive PTO meeting. It lasted longer than I thought it would, but was so worth it. We have a lot of stuff going on, or that we are trying to get going on. It's the school's first year, so there are lots of kinks to be worked out. The ladies are wonderful and I think we'll really be able to do a lot this year.

bible banger

i hate that term. i think it's disrespectful and ugly. i never wanted to be called that, so i don't share my faith. most of my friends are not Christians so i didn't/don't want to offend. i am pretty active in my church though. i attend life group on wednesday, i teach and attend service on sunday mornings. or at least i did. i've been in a spiritual funk lately. this past wednesday was the first time i'd been to life group in about 6-8 weeks. i got lazy on sunday mornings and would only go to teach my kiddos during the second service, but hadn't been attending the first service for myself. today i woke up bright eyed at 8:15, so i went to first service. 6-8 weeks of no spiritual growth, and no one noticed. except me. and God i'm sure. what does that say for what kind of Christian i was(am)? that i can go almost 2 months with out much faith based interaction and no one noticed. that is sad. it makes me sad. i truly believe that Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. i believe that he died on the cross for my sins(and yours). i believe that he will rise again. so why don't i say it? shout it from the roof tops? i am not ashamed. if people ask i will tell them i am the daughter of a king, but i don't put it out there. i have my church friends and my non-church friends. and that's not right. i want to be just one one angel. i want people to know by my actions that i'm a believer, i don't want them to even ask. i went to a leaders meeting tonight at church. i didn't really want to go. i figured i'm on such a roll with LG and service, why not? i am so glad i did. it truly gave me the kick in the rear i was needing. i was able to express my concern about something. that made me feel better. what made me feel even better was that i was approached by 3 people thanking me for expressing my concern, and validating how i felt. i wasn't alone. a light bulb, had been switched on, a door opened. i felt relieved. in an instant i felt like i was no longer alone. it all fell in to place. i needed to be back in LG, i needed to be at first service, i need that God time. "people" say you can "believe in God" even when you don't go to church. and that's true. there is a difference between just believing in something and actively pursuing a relationship. just believing in God will not get you to heaven. i am so thankful to be back on my walk with Christ. to feel whole again. it truly makes a difference. i feel like a little piece of my broken heart is unbroken, like a void has been filled. you don't even realize how much you miss Him until he has you back and safe in His loving arms. until he reaches out and says, welcome home my child, I've been waiting for you

PTO VP

Yup that's me! Can you believe it. I can't say it was a fair race b/c I was the only one running. They had to vote for me. There was 3 people running but, 1 didn't show up(you must be present to win..hehehe), and the other decided to run for a different office. So it was me. I'm excited. the school is great, for the most part. I love Jonathan's teacher. There just needs to be more parental involvement. There needs to be more "Angel" there.

Tonight was our district par-tay(as we have been refering to it). It was a BLAST. I think everyone had a great time. Me, Thomas, and Roy(my DM) did some shots. The ASM from Mansfield was a hoot! She brought her brother who about got us kicked outta the place! I think Sam and Sister made some pretty good money off of us. Some bailed early and some didn't show, but a great time was had by most!

Just when you think that you're going to pull your head above water, something pulls on your legs, and your drowning.......again.

I got this in my e-mail today.......Yea, he rocks

Angel,

Your beautiful, Your beautiful, your beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face, in a crowded place, and asked to marry you.
I'll always be with you.




Jason L. Hallock
Vice President
GR Morris and Associates
PH: (877) 457-9995
FAX: (877) 457-9998
www.gr-morris.com

3:35

went to lunch

got some christmas gifts

no cleaning done yet

don't care that there is no cleaning done yet

10:43 a.m. check in

just got out of bed

gonna do some online shopping

starving,

looking forward to lunch

A day off

Yup, that's what I have tomorrow. I don't know what I'm going to do. I have lots I want to do, but I don't want to make any real plans. I know I want to sleep in. That's about it. I have no days off. I work Monday-Saturday with Church on Sunday. I can't fathom what I'll do with a whole day off. One thing I can be sure of it will go by to quickly. Here's a list of the things I'd like to do tomorrow, We'll see tomorrow night how many of them(if any) get done.

**Sleep in
**Go to the Mattel outlet store
**Do some Christmas shopping
**Clean/Organize Jonathan and Savananh's room
**Move my SB stuff into this room(yes, it's still in my room)
**Clean and rearrange my room
**Wash/fold/hang/put away all laundry
**Go to lunch with my sister
**Go to Hobby Lobby/Mike's/Joann's
**Finish shopping for my Secret Santa
**Wrap some Christmas gifts
*****SCRAPBOOK!*****

I'm tired just looking at that list. I'll need another day off just to re-coup!

exhausted, tired, and wiped-out

What a busy day! We have been re-arranging like crazy. Just about everything and everyone that could be moved was! We put Savannah in with Jonathan, Misty and her girls in Savannah's old room, the computer(and hopefully by the end of the night) my scrap stuff into Misty's old room. We are also moving the TV from my room into the living room, and taking the TV from there and putting it into my room. Wheew! Makes me even more tired thinking about it. Why you ask? Privacy! The bonus room that Misty and her girls were in doesn't have a door. Their room was always open to anyone who walked into the house. They didn't have a closet either, so they used mine and Jason's. Also, the computer and the TV with the DVD player was in our bedroom. It pretty much made our room the central hang out of the house. Which is not a bad thing, but we just wanted our own space. So, now Misty and her girls have their own room(with their own closet!), and since the computer and the DVD player are not in our room anymore Jason and I will have a little more privacy as well. I still have to move my scrap stuff in here, and clean Jonathan and Savannah's room, but the bulk of the work is done. It was hard, but I think everyone will be happier in the end.

AKA

Also known as

i am known as lots o things

most good some bad.....

if asked my friends and loved one to describe me in 1 word

you would mostly likely hear:

honest

blunt

opinionated

yup, that's me

i have only recently begun to learn when to keep my mouth shut

it was a hard lesson

people don't always want to hear what I have to say

BUT

if you ask

i will tell

I am

Veracious

WAY outside the box here!

i don't do artsy

i don't do circles over the eye

everything about this page is not me!

notice all the A's are orange

sweet!

Who am I really?

i am a bunch of things. anyone who knows me, knows that. i chose just 5 for this layout. some good, some bad. this was the first challenge from the beyond appearances clan

http://beyond-appearances.blogspot.com/

they are similar to the effers, but are only on dare 7,

so i *may* have a chance to catch up!

I used

american crafts paper

doodlebug stickers

heidi swapp jewels

and my black zig marker

that's it!

lots of things out of comfort zone on here:

my handwriting

outlining my letter stickers

cutting those darn flowers by hand

making the pic just a little slanted

(so hard for me!)

Jonathan

My bubba

My buddy

My future NFL quarterback

My firstborn

This boy is awesome. He's going through a difficult phase right now.

I think it's that I'm about to be 8,

I'm going from being "little" kid, to being a BIG kid,

and I'm going to test my limits phase.

And, oh Boy, is he ever!

Even with his limit testing.

He is awesome.

He is polite

kind

sweet

thoughtful

smart

considerate

He is a

child of God

snuggler

brother

son

nephew

cousin

A die hard lover of football

He knows more trivia at 7 and 11 months

then most grown men!

Wanna know who won the first superbowl?

Ask him!

Who won the second?

Yup, he knows that one too!

He knows who the Bills played in each of their Superbowl losses

AND

what the score was!

He can name at least one player(past or present)

From every time in the NFL

He's amazing.

He's also book smart, this little guy has a thirst of knowledge that

only a 2nd grader can have.

He asks questions that I have never even thought about.

His grades are beyond worthy of bragging

Art 98%

Character Education 100%

Computer 92%

Health 100%

Language Arts 99%

Math 93%

Music 100%

PE 100%

Science 100%

Social Studies 99%

Spelling 99%

World Cultures 100%

I love this child more then I can even express in words.

He was totally worth the wait, worth the infertility work, worth the throwing up 6 times a day for 6 months, worth the 3 hospital stays,worth the pre-term labor scare,

worth the 16 hours of non-medicated pain.

I want to keep him with me always.

I dread the day he goes to Middle School

then High school

I get nausous thinking about college

And marriage?

What if he doesn't marry the right girl?

As he grows he makes me have more respect for my parents and grandparents.

I thought my children growing up would be easier,

but it's not

It's harder

Because

everyday

he

is one day

closer

to leaving me.

I'm a bad mom

Yup, that's me. Bad Mom Angel(or BMA as I'd now like to be called). Last night was halloween. I didn't take pictures. Didn't even think about it. And now, thinking back on it I'm not really sorry I didn't. I mean how many halloweens do I need pictures of? I don't "believe" in halloween I only let the kids "celebrate" it b/c it's all around them, and quite frankly I don't care either way. I even got comments at work from my DM and RM b/c I didn't decorate the store for halloween. I told them, " I don't do halloween". They both looked at me like I'd grown a 2nd head. I mean really, it has to be one of the dumbest holidays. It means NOTHING. We "celebrate" NOTHING. Expensive costumes, cakie makeup, and enough candy to rot your teeth out. As a mother who currently does not have dental insurance for her kiddos. I hate this "holiday". However, today I went to Hobby Lobby and they had all their Christmas stuff out! Now that's a holiday I can get into! It totally put me in the mood(down Jason, the mood for Christmas!) I can't wait to decorate the tree, to hear carols walking through Target, to see the children's faces light up as gifts "appear" under the tree.
Yeah, I'm a Christmas girl :)

Kopy Kat

I saw this on Amber Nicole's blog and thought it had some neat questions, so I copy and pasted:

1. Paper or Plastic? Paper if it's Target, plastic everywhere else.
2. Favorite Song right now? I don't know. I've been looking for a new one. Chasing Cars is getting old, I'm thinking HURT by Christina
3. If you could have ONE thing in your "heaven", what would that thing be? (anything) Is this my real heaven or a heaven on earth? Real Heaven would be a relationship with my Lord(duh, that's why I'm there!) Heaven on earth....My mom being sober....
4. Name one person (not friend or family) that has changed your life Amber Nicole, I don't know her. I've never even talked to her. Only today(after she posted AWESOME pics of her boy)was I able to even leave a comment. She is so talented. She is open and honest on her blog(something I aspire to). I feel more creative after reading her blog, she's that one that snapped me out of scrappin' birthdays and C-mas and got me scrappin about feelings, and moments. I am thankful for that.
5. Why do you think we get "chills" when we aren't cold?
No clue..I think I'll write to GA and ask them to address this on a future episode!

I am tagging Sister, Lou, Ten, Nuna, Tara, Ms. Tyne, and anyone else that reads my blog! Go now! Do it!

hmmmmmm

I think I'm tired of blogging. I don't get a lot of feedback. That bugs me. I can track from where the blog is read. I don't know people there. Why don't they say "hi", let me know they were here. And since I don't know who is reading, I don't feel comfortable being 100% "me". We'll see. Maybe it's just a phase.

Football and cheer leading is over. WOO-HOO! It was fun, and we all loved it, but we are so happy it's over. At the awards ceremony Savannah got the an award for most Christ-like from her coach. She was very excited about that. Poor Jonathan and Elize, their parents were their coaches so of course they couldn't get the award. They did great too though. I think I'm going o to sign Jonathan up for upward basketball. Jason isn't going to coach though! It'll be nice to just drop him at practice and go to the games without any of the extra stuff.

I gave Oli is book. My first scrapbook for hire. It wasn't done, but a lot of pages were in it. I think close to 40, and I still have at least 30 more to get done. It's so hard only being able to work on it on the weekends.

I recently figured out why I dislike working. It's not the job, or the people, it's the politics. I hate when people who have never done my job, never been in my store think that they know how to do my job. Um, HELLO! No you don't. It's hard not to kill the messenger. It's so dumb. Let me be, but they can't. They feel they have to harp about a missing fax cover sheet, when they got the rest of the stupid frickin' fax! Anyway....

I'm worried about Melibelle, if you're reading this please e-mail me, text me, call me, snail mail me, or contact me by any other means.

We are gonna do it, it's going to work

It'll be slow.

We have lots of planning.

I know we can do it.

We are both smart independent, hard-working women.

I'm thinking 1-2 years.

Hopefully less.

I want it to be right.

Be ready.

I want to say, be perfect

But I won't

It'll be just the way it's supposed to be

I hope

I'm so tired. I know you hear that all the time. It's true. Now it's a part of daily life. Oh well, listen to it or stop reading!

I sold my treadmill. I don't know that I would even call it "mine". I never even plugged it it. So I sold it to my collections girl at work. Hopefully she gets more use out of it than me.

Christmas is less than 2 months away. I'm stressed about this. Normally I'm done by now. I haven't even started, I don't even have any ideas. The kids are getting MP3 players, that's about all I know. I'd love to get them new bedroom furniture. That's like 2G's though, so it's not happening. I think I might start buying them pieces 1 at a time.

I'm almost done with Oli's book. I won't have it all done in time to give it to his wife, which bums me out. I can only work on it in my free time, and Lord knows I don't have much of that. It's wonderful though. I'm so pleased with how it has turned out. I hope they love it.

My DM makes such a deal out of when I need time off. I called today to see if I could take 90 minutes off for Jonathan's fall party, and he made me feel like he was doing me a favor by letting me go. I hate that feeling.

I'm still coming to grips with the fact that I'll neve be a SAHM again. It's rough, it's like part of me is dying. I'm going to work the rest of life. People do it everyday, I know. It's not what I want for me, for my family. I feel like I'm going to be stuck at my job forever. I will never make the money I make there anyway else. So I have to stay. BTW, thanks for attending my pity party......

Party Pooped

I'm exhausted. I want to go to bed. I still have to scrap. The party went great. The girls loved the castle bounce house. It was a great feeling not to have to entertain 20 kids. They went out side, they ate cake and ice cream, we opened gifts, they went home. Clean up was not as easy, but hey what do expect after having 30+ people running around your house?

I'm off to the table......

Party Prep

We are preparing for the "double birthday" which is what the girls' have dubbed the party tomorrow. The house is clean, the yard is pooper scooped, most of the gifts are bought. Thankfully Staci is making the cakes, have I mention how THANKFUL I am that Staci is making the cakes! We will be having all sorts of yummy munchies as well. I still have to clean my room and put away some laundry, and make the goody bags. I hope I have enough. Elize said some kids from her class are coming but they did not RSVP. I hate rude people.

I can't wait until tomorrow. The girls don't know it yet, but we are going to have a bounce house! Yup, a GAINT pink castle will fill our yard tomorrow afternoon. Isn't that so cool? I can't wait to see their expression. They are going to be so excited.

For those of you coming, I can't wait to see you tomorrow.
If you are not coming, you better live far away!

I love this man!

I mean I REALLY love this man! 10 years.....it seems like forever ago, yet yesterday. I don't really remember not being with him. Everything before him is pretty much a blur. How did I live 18 years without him? He came into my life at the most perfect time. and he is perfect for me. He puts up with so much crap from me. If I have a bad day or if I'm mad, he gets the brunt of it and never complains. He just listens and lets me vent on him. I love that. He not only makes me feel beautiful, he convinces me that I am. He doesn't waiver about it, he makes me believe it too. When I'm down he picks me up, when I'm high he lifts me higher.

He works hard for our family.

He is a great father.

He is my world.

I love you.

My gift......

He gave me 20 long stem roses with a card that made me cry(of course!) and a picture of my D80 that he swears he's going to get me no matter how much I protest.

Another reason I love him......

Exactly 5 years ago today, I was in labor....

With this beautiful girl.....

She is 5 years old today. I can't believe my "baby" is 5. In some ways it seems like she's younger, and in some ways so much older. For those of you that know Savannah she is a wonderful, exciting, girl. She is full of life and fun. I am so blessed to have her in my life, and thankful for all that she has given me and has taught and continues to teach me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAVANNAH!

I'm home

We are back! I'm happy yet sad. It was great to come home to a bunch of hugs and kisses, but dang, did we HAVE to come home????? I wish I could fill you in a our exciting weekend, but the truth is it wasn't exciting, and that was exactly how I wanted! On Friday we checked into our cabin, got in the hot tub, went to dinner, got in the hot tub, went to bed.

On Saturday pretty much the same thing except we went and got massages.

It was great to have NO time line, no where to be, and no one to entertain.

This was out cabin, it was called the Linderhof, which for those of you that have never been stationed in Germany is one of King Ludwigs Castles.

It was perfect.

I'm going to try and convince the lifesavers to have a weekend there!

This is my hunny in the hot tub, we spent a lot of time in there!

I mean really it's on back porch, we didn't want it to go to waste:)

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Today I had to come back home to real life:( And to make real life worse I bought a coffee pot. I officially feel old. I only drink coffee from Starbucks, I have never made it at home before. Now I think I'm to a point where I have to. I have made a command decision to get up everyday at 6:30. I can only do this with help from my good friends, Black and Decker, and Folgers. When I got home I had to go grocery shopping and while out I bought me this: It has a timer so I won't actually have to get up and make coffee, it'll start perculating on it's own at 6:20. Sweet.

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When I got home and checked my cluster map, there was a whole bunch of new hits in places where I don't think I know people. Which I know is not uncommon in the blog world, but it still trips me out. I wish they would comment, then I think of all the people I blog stalk and don't comment so, I guess we are even.

Thank you to my sister and kiddos who not only had cake and presents waiting for me when I got home, but had also cleaned the whole house and done laundry! YOU ROCK!

Thank you to my lovely friend Melibelle for the fabulous Those Were The Days kit she got me for my birthday. I love it!!! MWAH!

This was by far my best birthday in recent history, a special thanks to all.

I love each and everyone of you.

My birthday at work!

I totally got the birthday hook up at work! Kim got me the purse, bodywash, and lotion. Drea decorated my area and got me the HUGE balloon, and Thomas got me Greay's Anatomy Season 2 and Orange Daisys(not pictured).

Less than 48 hours from now.....

I'll be snug as a bug in a rug in a cabin in the woods with my one and only.

I can't wait.

Seriously, I'm like a kid waiting for my birthday party.

Today I called and scheduled us Swedish massages too.

That is our only plan for the weekend. Other than that we are free to lounge and do(or not do)whatever we want. What a wonderful feeling.

I can't get a good shot of Jason's new do, so I'll update later. I'm getting my hair done tomorrow too! My stylist is giving me a FREE cut and color to be her guinea pig. Hey, it's only hair, I'm up for anything!!!

Amanda got her kids back today! Well, we still have them. She's coming to get them this weekend. Please continue to pray for her and for the kids. It's going to to be an adjustment for her after being childless for 6 months.

I got a call tonight saying that I should be getting a goodie in the mail......I l LOVE, LOVE, LOVE goodies in the mail! She totally knows this too! MWAH! Love ya!

A new do' for my favorite dude

Last night Jason got his haircut then I put highlights in it. It's looks so freakin' cute! I Love it. I'm totally diggin' my post Army guy. Here is a before pic, I'll post an after tonight.

OH, and........2 days until my birthday and my weekend away with the hubby!!

We interupt the countdown to my birthday for this brief message.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUNA! She's the BIG 3-0,

and looking better than ever:)

~Countdown to my Birthday~

Yesterday I got my first birthday gift! Be Delicious by DKNY. It smells awesome! I tried to take picture of the bottle, which by the way looks like a little apple! It has a chrome topper though and you could see me taking the picture in the picture! Make Sense? Anyway, Thank you so much my dear friend for the fabulous smelling perfume! I LOVE IT!

You've gotta friend in me!

A good friend: one that will ride a freaky space ship ride at the science center with your hubby when you are too scared to. Thanks for being a good friend!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTYNE!!!

I love you!

YOU'VE COME A LONG WAY BABY!!!

How could you NOT love her? She's gorgeous, inside and out. She's smart, helpful, kind, considerate, and I'm blessed to call her my NIEICE.

Happy Birthday Baby!

Who lives in New Mexico, Asia, and Georgia???

So I but I blog tracker on here so I could see who's reading my blog. Some of these places I just don't know who it is?? I know Kansas is family, Texas is the lifesavers, Pa is Jason's mom, whoever is in NY is also Jason's family. NC is Deanna. I'm pretty sure FL is Selena, TN is of course Ms. Tyne. I think OKC is someone who swears not to like me, so I wonder why she reads my blog....IL/Mo is of course Tara-mesue:) Germany is Sarah.

New Mexico, Georgia and Asia are kicking my butt though. Who are you and how'd you end up on my blog. I don't mind, I'm just curious....

I took a nap

It was like a blessing and a curse. I was so tired on Sunday afternoon I could hardly keep my eyes open, so I napped. Since I did, the laundry didn't get done, the Sunday house cleaning didn't get done. I of course feel guilty about this. I feel like my house is a pit. I have not done a very good job of teaching my children to clean. It's my fault. I'm a freak. I'd rather do it myself and have it done my way, then be patient and let them do it. So they haven't done it, and now when I try to get them to, they do a sucky job at it. So I try to do it all myself. I felt like a loser last week,. I only worked 50 hours but still couldn't get my sh*t together. I'm sinking, I'm tired of everything and everyone. I want a break. Amanda has court tomorrow. I pray she gets her kids back. I love them, I truly do. My "good deed" is over running my life though. It's keeping Misty from moving on to bigger and better things for her and her girls, b/c she's home caring for A and C. No one in this house can move forward until they go back to their mom. I'm not going to be able to quit my job anytime soon. Jason isn't happy at work again. We all know what happened last time he wasn't happy. I don't want a replay. We are working on a plan for him to go back to school. He almost has an AA, so he'd only to need to go back for 2ish years. He wants to coach football. He's thinking of getting a physical ed teaching degree and going from there. I just want him to be happy. I'm so sick of him being unhappy. I don't understand how people are not happy and are not thankful. I go through my spurts of "unhappy" (like right now!), but they are short lived. I don't stay in a funk for more than a few hours. It's not me. I don't know how I got like this. Everyone get funky and stay funky for days, weeks, and sometimes even months. Not me. I'm a freak(again!) . I'm a positive person that always see the upside and doesn't dwell on the crappy. I have a very hard time understanding those who dwell on the crappy and don't try to change, or at least live with it and make the best of it. Lead or get out of the way. That's my motto. No one is going to change your life but you. So start living, or start dying, but either way stop your complaining!

Jonathan got a hair cut!

Before:

After:

He's now the coolest 7 year old at HSA. He rocks!

If you don't like it

I don't care,

don't leave a comment on it though.

I don't need more negitivity in my life.