I have been scolded for not being a better blogger. I have so much I want to tell, yet at the same time nothing to tell. Does that make sense???

We are looking into moving. Jason is thinking about going back to school, if he does then we'll need to downsize. No, we are not selling any children. Just looking into an older home. Still 3-4 bedrooms, just not with the hefty rent we pay now. It'll be really hard for awhile. I'm honestly not sure if I'm ready. I'm trying to be really supportive, but it's hard. I'd be the majority of the income for 11 months. Jason would get his GI bill but it's not the same as a regular pay check. I need security. It's been a LONG time since I've had it and it's wearing on me. I need Jason to want to go to work, and to like his job. Maybe even love it. I need to know that everything is going to be OK. I feel like my life is in constant upheaval. I hate that. I feel like I have no control over anything and that any minute the floor is going to be pulled from underneath me. Overwhelmed doesn't even scratch the surface of how I feel. I want a break. A long one. From all of it.

com·mit·ment

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–noun
1. the act of committing.
2. the state of being committed.
3. the act of committing, pledging, or engaging oneself.
4. a pledge or promise; obligation:

I'm making commitments instead of resolutions this year. No one keeps resolutions. They're like a diet, it's short term. Not a lifestyle change. That's what I need, a life style change. There are a million things running through my head, things I like about myself and my life. Things I do not. I need to change them, and I need help. I'm putting my commitments on my blog so that I see them everyday, I'll be able to monitor my progress and step it up if I start slacking. And I will, I'm human. 2005 and 2006 were 2 of my worst years on record, I pray and hope that 2007 will be wonderful. A year of growth, learning, love, and happiness.

New Year, New Blog!

I'm still tryng to work out all the kinks,

but here is my new and improved blog for 2007!

I've been wanting to change it up for awhile, but haven't had the time.

I am going to be adding more stuff over the next couple of days,

since I have 2 days off! Woo-hoo!

Happy New Year!

Merry *Christ*mas!

Agh!

No title seemed right for a blog about nothing so there it is! AGH!

Not much to report. We have been off the hook crazy, busy at work this week.

Today we opened with 3100, and I went to the bank 3 times and got 3 g's each time!

CRAZY busy, new loan city in my place.

I only need to get 2 things to be done C-mas shopping!

YIPPEE! I can pick them both up in the a.m. before work if I get up early enough.

If not, there's is always Saturday:)

I need to wrap

I only have like, 6 gifts wrapped

That's it

I'm going to be a wrapping fool over the next few days

I can't wait for 4 pm on Saturday

2 1/2 days off work

Praise the Lord!

I need it so bad

I can't wait until March

I get vacation-paid!

Like a real job!

I'm not feeling 100% in the spirit

I'm trying really hard though

I'm hoping it'll hit on Saturday when I leave work

That place can be such a downer sometimes

Nothing is ever good enough

oh well

Kids went shopping for each other tonight

j and s bought for e

j and e bought for s

e and s bought for j

Fun had by all

Including me:)

Welp, i better get to bed

i was gonna wrap, but it's 10

and I'm an old lady

I need my beauty sleep

Hehehehehehehe

I made them!

If any of you read Cynthia's blog then you saw these:

Since she has a rebel her pics are much prettier, but the jist is the same.They are great:)

They are sweet, fatty, yummy goodness. Everyone said so.

You need to make some now!

I found it!!!

Now that the Christmas season is upon us the kids have been talking about Christmas cookies. Well, if you live in north Texas you know not all Christmas cookies are created equal. Ms. Kitty(Staci's mom) has passed down THE BEST homemade sugar cookie recipe. When I say the best I mean absolutely fan-tab-u-lous! Anyway, so I thought that I had lost my copy of the secret family recipe(or maybe Joe sold it....), but last night while cleaning, I FOUND IT! YIPPEEE~!! So this weekend we will be sugar cooking making fools. Thanks Kitty and Staci!

P.S. No, you can't have a copy of the recipe, I had to be in the circle of trust for YEARS before I got it!! Your day will come too....in 2011...hehehehehehhe......

I Quit!

It is ridiculous that I work more than anyone else in this family, yet I'm still expected to carry the majority of the workload at home too. Hello? Does anyone else live here? I asked "someone" to help me put away laundry, and oh my, did the world end? What? Help? I only live here and expect clean underwear, but I shouldn't under any circumstances have to actually put those underwear away.

Heaven forbid!!

I get 1 day off. 1 day! Do you know what I do on that 1 day? Clean and do laundry. All day most of the time. Now granted I do get a little break to do things like go grocery shopping! Woo-hoo! I'm foot lose and fancy free now!!! My life is consumed by work and household chores. I wish that some of the other people who lived in my house who help just a little bit. If I don't do it, it doesn't get done. I believe I have led them to think that I am the one who does it all. Which was fine when I was a SAHM. I didn't mind doing all for everyone. I can't now, it's too much. I get like an hour a day with my kids, 2 if I'm lucky. I can't do it all. And no one cares. No one cares that I work all these hours, that I still make time to go to school functions for my kids, that I'm still doing household chores, that I'm paying the bills to make sure they have a house to live in, that I'm taking care of all this "little" stuff to help everyone. It's expected of me. I feel very little appreciation. NO ONE asks how I'm doing. It's all about them. I hate my job, blah, blah, blah. Don't we all?. I don't want to work! I guess since I don't complain about my situation on a daily basis I must love it. Right?

Holy Moly! What is this? My baby is 8? I can't believe it. I could bore you with the infertility story of how it took us 18 months to get Pregnant. Talk about the all junk we had to go through, tell about how we got pregnant during the month when the Dr. said there was no chance. Then go into detail about the horrible and troubled pregnancy I had(2 hospital stays!!Before the birth!) BUT I won't!! All that matters is I have a son who ROCKS!

I mean he is awesome.

He is smart

handsome

thoughtful

nice

considerate

fun

and in general a good kid.

Does he have his moments?

Of course.

But I wouldn't trade him for anything.

I LOVE THIS BOY!!!

Happy Birthday Big Daddy!!!

We had a blast. It was great getting the special treatment. Catered food, free drinks. toilets with doors made of wood. It's high society on the admiral level at the AA center. the game was good, not near as rowdy as the playoff of game. Fun nonetheless. I'm exhausted, but I'm waiting till Jason gets home home from taking D home. So I'm on the puter catching up on e-mails and such. I feel so out of the loop.

Ten....a chi is a flat iron. it's supposed to be better for your hair cuz it has ceramic plates. it makes my hair feel pretty :)
http://www.folica.com/CHI_Ceramic_Fla_d5.html

WHICH WAY IS UP?????

THAT'S HOW I FEEL. IT'S BEEN A LONG WEEK AND IT ISN'T OVER YET. LAST NIGHT I WENT TO BED AT 9. WELL, ACTULLY I FELL ASLEEP ON THE COUCH WATCHING CHRISTMAS SHOWS WITH THE KIDS AROUND 8:30. I WENT TO MY BED AT 9. TONIGHT IS THE MAVS GAME. I SHOULD BE EXCITED, I'M NOT. I'M EXHAUSTED.

53.75

THAT'S HOW MANY HOURS I WORKED THIS WEEK, ON TOP OF ALL MY OTHER DUTIES. I EVEN CAME IN LATER THAN NORMAL A FEW DAYS, AND LEFT A LITTLE EARLIER A FEW TOO. SAD.

PLEASE LORD LET ME WIN THE LOTTERY..........

Exhausted

I think when I get done posting this I am going to bed. I'm SO tired, and it's only Wednesday. What's a girl to do?? Monday I got home from my meeting at 11pm(thanks G and L, I had an awesome time!!). Tuesday I got home at 10:30, and still had to make 2 posters for PTO and make our class basket for the silent auction look pretty! This morning I was up and out at 7:30. I took the kiddos to school, and worked in the office doing PTO stuff until 9:30 when I went to work. Jonathan's teacher said there was no reason for me to come tonight, he is doing very well. Yipee! I tiny break.

In VERY exciting news....
I GOT A CHI!!
Not just any chi, the turbo chi. i wish i could give a review, but I haven't actually used it yet. I did however get it for an awesome price. It was originally 169.99. Bed, Bath and Beyond price matched Target, so it was 79.99, THEN they take competitors ads(even after the price match!) and I got another 20% off! It came out to be 64 bucks! Can you believe it? I'm in heaven!

If you get a chance click on Melibelle's name(see the right side), and check out her new digi stuff she's been doing. It's very cool!

Katina, Staci, and Justyne: If I'm this busy and can still update, you can too!

busy

i thought i would take a moment to let ya'll my schedule this week. that way if you call, e-mail, or im and i do not respond, you'll know why.

monday-
take savannah to school 9 am
go to work 9:15-6:45
meeting with lana and galynn 8pm-???

tuesday-
take big kids to school 7:45 am
go to work 8 am-6:45 pm
pto exec board meeting 7pm-???

wednesday
take savannah to school 9 am
go to work 9:15-6:30
lifegroup 6:30-7:30
parent/reacher conferance 7:45-8

thursday
take big kids to school 7:45 am
go to work 8 am-6:45 pm
general pto meeting 6:45-7:45

friday
set up for muffins with mom 7 am
enjoy muffins with mom 7:30-7:45
go to work 8am-7pm

saturday
go to work 9:30 am-3:30 pm
pick babysiter 4 pm
jason's company c-mas party(@ a mavs game in a suite!)5:30-????

sunday
church 9am
sunday school 10:40
awanas family fun night 4:30-6pm

that's my week folks! it's a busy one, so if you don't hear from me, or you don't see a blog update, that's why.

I'm so lucky to have these "peeps"

Not just for scrapbooking anymore!

Tonight I used my cricket to make signs for the PTO. Sweet huh? It made it so super easy. This thing has endless possibilities! I'm so glad I got it. I have yet to use anything on page, but I will...soon. Don't they look great? I love that it can cut letter so big. And look how smart I was to use the negative pieces on the 2nd on and not waste paper. That O gave me a hard time though.

It is really thunder booming out! It's supposed to freeze and ice over. Texans can't drive, so it will be crazy out tomorrow on the interstate, and in town. Makes me very thankful I work only 3 miles from home. I haven't forgotten about pics from the SS exchange, i promise. I'm just lazy! Ok, not lazy. Tired and busy. Will do it soon.
Stella, are you reading this? I saw on Sherri's board you were in FW. Are you still here? If so give me a holler, maybe we can meet for dinner, I'd love that!!!!

Christmas Spirit

Yup, that's my baby girl under a tree. Poor thing, she was a very good sport about it all. We decided this year to get a real tree. Once purchased we of course had to get it home. We were going to tie it to the roof, but I frankly I didn't have the patience for that. I laid down one of the back seats, told Savannah to scoot over and wa-la! It fit. She wasn't very comfortable for about 8 minutes while we drove home, but she made it through.

Crying

that's what i've felt like doing all day. it's so not like me. i mean i'm a sentimental crier, movies and such, but to in general just cry? no way. i don't do public displays of emotion. all day, i'll i've wanted to do is sob uncontrollably. but i haven't. what good would it do? it's pointless. it doesn't fix anything, it certainly doesn't make me feel better. it'd just make me feel crappier, cause i'd get a headache. i wish it would just go away, but it hasn't. i've been trying to shake it all day. and it's still here. part of me says, cry. then the feeling would go away. my other part says, stop being such a baby and suck it up. for those of you who don't know me very well, suck it up is my motto. suck it up and pray. that's what i say. can't change anything any other way. so i'm sucking, i'm going to try and busy myself so i don't think about the undeniable, uncontrollable urge to break down.

Yup, that's me!

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Nightmare

i had a nightmare light night that Savannah was hit by a car. and no one cared, but galynn. the car of girls who hit her ran off. i called 911 but they said all their ambulances were in east texas and they "might" be able to see her if we brought her in. bring her in, i screamed? she was ran over, thrown up in the air and landed on her head, and you want me to move her! she woke up slightly and said nothing hurt, so I picked her up and began walking to the nearest ER. Along the way i ran into galynn and her husband and they helped. i saw my mom too, but she was too busy smoking to help. after this i woke up. i immediately rolled over and put my arm around Savannah(who was of course in my bed!) and snuggled with her. I hate dreams like this. i used to have them abut misty all the time. i hope i don't start having them again. anyway, i just needed to get it out before i forget. tomorrow is turkey day folks. yippeee~!

It's just another manic monday......

The devil created Mondays. i have no doubt. today i went to work at 8:15 and i left at 7:45. gotta love it. ya, right. it makes for a LONG day. super long. we did around 45 transactions which is alot, with 10 new loans. crazy. it's only going to get worse the closer to Christmas it gets. long hours, cranky people, stressed out angel. oh joy.

in case you haven't noticed, my shift key is busted. i'm going to be flying lower case for while. i'm hoping the tax return god will bless me and i can get an imac.

Jason gave me my Christmas gift early. he rocks it rocks. i love it. i can't wait till my scrap room is clean so i use use it more.

I CAN'T WAIT TILL THANKSGIVING!

I LOVE THANKSGIVING.

I LOVE LOTS OF PEOPLE

AND LOTS OF FOOD

I LOVE A HOUSE FULL OF PEOPLE

THE NOISE

THE LOVE

THE FRIENDS

I LOVE IT

I CAN'T WAIT