Where do we go from here?

That is a power packed question. It means so many different things....

Moving. Jason and I are thinking about moving. Out of Texas. My job has a location in AZ. So does Jason's. He has already put in a transfer. If we hear something back I will put one in too. We are weeds. We have no roots. I guess it's the Army in us. We like TX, but it hasn't been good to us. It's time to spread our wings. See where God takes us. We are discussing another place as well, but we'll see...

Savannah Got A Haircut!

This is what Savannah looked like at 8 a.m.
Notice her hair has not been combed.

Combing her hair was a nightmare,

that's why we are getting a haircut ;0)

Washing
Waiting after washing
Cutting......
Doesn't she look beautiful!
A true Savannah pose!

Princess Belle, with a short do'

The joys of having an 8 year old....

You get to go see Spider-man 3 on opening day.........

Exhausted

I'm so tired, I want to sleep forever. Tonight is a 2 hour GA! Woo-hoo. Finally something good coming my way :0)

Randomness

Here's a little bit of this and that from me:

I have insurance! Yippee! We've been without for almost a year. We still don't have dental b/c we missed the sign-up with Jason's company and my dental stinks. We have medical though! It's decently priced, and has pretty OK prescription coverage too. Nothing like Tricare, but military insurance is a dream.

Toilets: the pottys at work flush automatically. Sometimes I forget this while at home and I start to walk out of the bathroom without flushing. I always catch myself and go back and flush, but WOW what a luxury to have!

Veronica Mars-Oh how I have missed my sweet Veronica! Her and Logan are broken up. Tonight he saw her kissing Piz, he was jealous. Serves him right for throwing that party for Parker. They will get back together. It's almost fun watching them be miserable without each other though.

MY SISTER GOT A JOB! YEAH sister! She will be working at a restaurant called either Tavern 29 degrees OR 29 degrees Tavern. I can't remember. She's excited, so I'm excited for her.

RED: It's my power color. Don't get me wrong. I still love orange, but red makes me feel confidant, sexy, and powerful. Wore red earrings yesterday, and a red necklace today. I totally rocked the red!

All about Jason

I always fill these out for myself, but I thought it would be fun to do one for my fella!
Here's to my hunny!

What is the love of your life's name? Jason
How did you meet? At Village Inn, we shared Dino Fingers
When did you meet? 1996
What were your first thoughts? That's the jerk who wouldn't talk to be at the bar!
What/where was your first date? Olive Garden
When did he/she meet your family? In July, my aunt Brenda showed him her boobs....long story
What did your family think?My mom liked him right away and I still swear she loves him more than she loves me! ;)
When did he/she meet your friends? He knew most of them already, and the rest he met right away
Have you talked about marriage yet?A few times:)
How long into the relationship was your first argument? I don't know
What did you argue about? I don't remember, we don't argue much, but when we do it's BAD!

THE FUN STUFF
Who flirted first? He did, he gave me the cheesiest, sweetest line ever
How did you know he/she was into you?He called me all the time
Did he/she use a pick-up line? If so, what was it? Yes
What is longest you have gone without seeing each other?8-10 weeks
Were you friends before dating? nope
Do you like the same sports teams?yep, we were just watching the draft together this afternoon
When did you meet his/her friends? I already knew all his friends
How do you feel about his/her friends? Is this present tense or past?
When you are both in the car, do you agree on the music? most of the time
Did you get nervous before the first date?yes, i really liked him

THE HARDSHIPS
Have you been through anything really tough together?Heavens YES!
Have you come close to breaking up? Once
Why did/do you feel it was/is important to work things out? Because he's my person(you have to watch Grey's to get this!)
Has he/she seen you cry? Of Course
Has he/she made you cry?of course
Have you made him/her cry? of course
What do you do to fix problems in your relationship? Pray, talk, tickle, laugh

THE PERSONAL STUFF
Who held hands first? no clue
What was the first kiss like? (on the cheek, the lips, etc.) wonderful
Who kissed who first? I think I kissed him, because he was taking forever to kiss me! He said it was b/c he liked me too much and wanted to take it slow:)
How did you feel after that first kiss?weak
How long into the relationship did you umm... do the "deed"?Um, I'm so not putting that out there.
Are things in the bedroom still 'hot'? Yes

HOW MUCH DO YOU REALLY KNOW? (About your partner...)
Birthday?July 13, 1975
Parent's names?Karen and Norm
Pet's Names? Joe and Vince
Favorite Food?Pizza and Wings
Favorite Song? Boston by Augustana
Favorite color? Blue and Green
Favorite Animal? Probably dogs, but he loves them all
Favorite TV Show? Sportscenter
Favorite sports team? Buffalo Bills
Favorite Movie? Shawshank Redemption
Dream Car? I don't know honestly ** I asked this question after the quiz, and it turns out I did know I just forgot!** He wants a 1970's Chevy C-10 2 tone-Orange and white :)
Where was he/she born? Cuba New York
Where did he/she grow up?East Coast, all over
Who is his/her best friend? Me
Worst Fear? That I wouldn't forgive him
Biggest Celebrity crush?Rachel Ray

Draft Day!

Today is the NFL draft. It's a big deal in our house.

I needed to go to work today, but couldn't b/c Jason had to work. So the kids and I hit the streets and went to Target and the grocery store. Then we went to a Men's cook off at our church. It was nice to hang out and let the children play. Jason just got home and now him and Jonathan are tuned into ESPN watching the draft.

I'm not sure what I will do. I'm thinking of cleaning my pigstye of a scraproom. I know I will feel better in the end, and maybe will actully sit down and scrap, but I don't really want to. I think I'm going to go lay on floor in the living room and chill with my boys.

Still Alive

Not much going on. Yet so much going on.
My head is full of thoughts
None I want to share
If you've called me and I haven't called back
I'm sorry
Same with e-mails
I'm taking a little time for me and family right now
We need it
I need it
It's all about the Hallock's for awhile
Actually, it's all about Jason and Angel
How selfish! I love it.
Slowly we will integrate others back into our lives
Not now though
This is the key to our survival

My head and heart are heavy....

I have so many emotions running through me. I think I have experienced every human emotion in the last week.....

fear
disbelief
anger
shock
fury
pain
hurt
peace
lonely
guilt
nervous
insecure
judged
contempt
empty
detached
abandoned
dejected
glorious
free
ecstatic
unsure
loved
unloved

Wheew! That's list, but I have felt them all. Some for longer than others...Some are not gone yet, just in smaller doses. I despise uncertainty. I have had to trust God more in the last 6 days then I ever had in my entire life. I felt him, my strength came from him. Even Jason said he knew he was there. It's hard to deny feelings like that. It's even more difficult when you are feeling all of the above emotions, AND trusting in God because of the circumstances causing the emotions.

It's not all figured out yet. If it ever will be. I am taking it day by day, minute by minute. Admittedly some minutes are better then others. I'll be doing great, then a flash or memory from nowhere attacks me and I'm reduced to silence and sometimes tears.

Praise God

People always talk about peace. How to get it. Where it comes from. It’s hard to get. Unless you know where to go. This morning I was about to throw up I was so apprehensive. I prayed for peace. I know others were praying for me too. No matter how hard you try to give something up to the Lord, human nature is to hold on to it. To fix it yourself. I know I can’t fix this alone. Honestly I don’t want to.

A very wise man said this to me:

You can’t fix this, only God can;
you can’t control this, only God can;

If you know me at all you know this is hard for me. So hard. I’m a fixer, I’m always in control….but I’m not right now. Part of me is going insane! I need to fix this! I need to make it right. Then there is another part…the part that is hard to hear…that part that says….

You helped break it....

only God can fix it…

only he can make it better…

give it to him…

your hurt…
your anger…
your frustration….
your guilt….
your trust…
your life…
your love…
give it all to Him……..

3 weeks....

That's a long time for no blog. I haven't felt like it. Nothing good to say. Plus I have been trying to limit my time on the puter.

Work is going well. I've pretty much grasped the concept of what I do. It's not hard. I only have questions when something is out of the ordinary. I can put on my cruise control and work all day with out much thought. That has come in handy a few times in the past few weeks. They have approved OT until the end of the month, so I'm going to try and get as much as possible. I'll need it for my deductible.

Yes, deductible. Last night a bad storm blew through with golf ball size hail. Wouldn't you know some of that hail found it's way to my windshield. Go figure. Thank the Lord I only have a 250 deducible. Not sure how much windshields cost...I'll call USAA today and start the process.

We got our new bed :) It's a queen size, adjustable sleep number bed. It was hard for us to go from a King to Queen, but I really wanted the adjustable. I'm so glad I did too! Totally worth it. I love that I can sit up in bed and watch to TV! Plus it has a massage function..... If anyone is on the fence about one of these baby's, don't be! Call Jason right now and order one. HE can ship anywhere.
www.selectcomfort.com

Beef.....it's no longer what is for dinner. Bison all the way baby! I had a bison burger in our cafeteria at work the other day and it ROCKED! Bison has way lower fat and calories then beef, turkey, and chicken. Basically any other animal :) And it's good! Beef has always had funny taste to me, but the bison didn't. It was so good. Now the bad part...it's so $$$$. Eating healthy costs so much money. I think that's the plan. That way you can't afford to eat junk in your time of weakness! I've been pretty dedicated for 2 weeks and I've lost 7 lbs. Only 105 to go! Wish me luck. If I can keep up this pace I'll be at my goal weight in 7.5 months.

I got my e-mail yesterday at work to sign up for benefits. AKA..insurance. I can not believe I will have to pay for medical coverage. Never in my adult life have I paid for medical. That is the 1(yes 1) thing I truly miss about Jason being in the service. Thankfully Countrywide has several p;ans to choose from based on your needs. So I have been a researching fool. Jason's job offers it too, but it's more expensive. His dental is better, we'll get that through his job. I'm going to try and get my sister a job at CW. She needs the insurance BAD! She's falling apart. Seriously, I just picked her arm up off the floor...I hate when she leaves her body parts laying around...hehehehhe. But seriously, she needs insurance.

Happy Saturday my friends.

Hit the nail on the head.......

Jan 01 to Jan 11- Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) - Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 - Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree
Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree


TREES (in alphabetical order)
Apple Tree (Love) -- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affectionate partner.

Ash Tree (Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.

Beech Tree (Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).

Birch Tree (Inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant,friendly, unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.

Cedar Tree (Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

Chestnut Tree (Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive,well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.

Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.

Elm Tree (Noble-mindedness) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.

Fig Tree (Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, sexually oriented, great sense of humor, has artistic talent and great intelligence.

Fir tree (Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress well, loves anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them, hard to trust others, yet a social butterfly, likes idleness and laziness after long demanding hours at work, rather modest, talented, unselfish, many friends, very reliable.

Hazelnut Tree (Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humor, very demanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.

Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.

Lime Tree (Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.

Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.

Oak Tree (Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.

Olive Tree (Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.

Pine Tree (Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, low self esteem, needs affection and reassurance.

Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

Rowan Tree (Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

Walnut Tree (Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.

Weeping Willow (Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.

I have had something on my mind lately. I'm not done churning it yet, so I'm not going to put it out there tonight. This weekend I will probably do a long, intense blog about it. It's nothing bad. It involves no one but myself. It's just thoughts. Or should a say a thought.

ordinary
1. of no special quality or interest; commonplace; unexceptional
2. plain or undistinguished
3. somewhat inferior or below average; mediocre

extraordinary
1. beyond what is usual, ordinary, regular, or established
2. exceptional in character, amount, extent, degree, etc.; noteworthy; remarkable:

**MOD**

I am totally digging the 80's fashion comeback. I love the black and white polks dot shirts, the black and white stripe sweaters. The chunky beads in both braclet and necklace form. The bright colors that go with the back and white. The shirts that have the little tie around the waist! I got me a red and white polka dot one:) It's so fun. The only thing I'm NOT digging is the shoes. I don't really like the glossy slides. Ewww. Who knows I may change my mind..I did about the whole blog thing...hehehehe. So anyway, orange is still my most super favorite color, but for now I'm living in black, white, and red moment. Have a great week friends!

P.S.
Ten-Get another blog, we need to stay in touch more
Tara-Just get a blog!
Justyne-Congrats on your interview! They are opening a new VA hospital here in FTW......I have been trying to moment on your blog for days Windows Live Hates ME!!!
Deanna-UPDATE! UPDATE!
Melibelle- CALLME! TEXTME! EMAILME!! I NEED TO KNOW YOUR OK!

A funny

A distinguished young woman on a flight from Ireland asked the priest beside her,
"Father, may I ask a favor?"
"Of course. What may I do for you?"
"Well, I bought an expensive woman's electronic hair dryer for my mother's birthday that is unopened and well over the Customs limit, and I'm afraid they' ll confiscate it. Is there any way you could carry it through Customs for me? Under your robes perhaps?"
"I would love to help you, dear, but I must warn you: I will not lie."
"With your honest face, Father, no one will question you."
When they got to Customs, she let the priest go ahead of her.
The official asked,
"Father, do you have anything to declare?"
"From the top of my head down to my waist, I have nothing to declare."
The official thought this answer strange, so he asked,
"And what do you have to declare from your waist to the floor?"
"I have a marvelous instrument designed to be used on a woman, but which is, to date, unused."
Roaring with laughter, the official said, "Go ahead, Father. Next!"

I'm not perfect...

Are you back on your chair? I know you fell off...

This week I have come to the realization I'm not perfect. I am not symmetrical. First, it was my boots. I have these "tall" boots that the left leg always kinda slouched. The right boot would hug my calf nicely and always stay in place. That left boot..... slouch, slouch, slouch. Have you read the Ramona books? I had elephant ankle. Instead of pantyhose, it was a boot!

Anyway, so I thought it was a freak thing. Maybe one boot was bigger than the other, perhaps even defective. Than I bought a new pair of ballet-ish slip on shoes(black sparkly-very cute). I wore them to work, and guess what? By the end of the day my left foot had a blister on the heal. While my right foot was just fine! My left foot is slightly smaller! AGH! Maybe my left calf is also smaller that's why the boot didn't fit well. What next?

Well, I'll tell you!

My ear!

My left ear is also smaller. I've been working with my ipod on during the day. I will of course have to take the ear buds out to talk to to people. Well let me tell you. After a few in and outs my ear was killing me!! Didn't bother my right ear. JUST THE LEFT! My left ear is smaller!

Can you believe all this? What is the world coming to????

Deep Thoughts by Angel .......

I admit it. I'm a customer service queen. I provide excellent customer service. Even I when I don't want to. On my worst day, my customer service is good. I don't know if it's the businesses or the people or both, but CS in the world to today sucks. For example:

Just awhile ago at Wal-mart I was checking out. Did the cashier say hello? no. How are you? no. NOTHING. Oh, but she did proceed to pull out her cell phone and start TEXTING while I was swiping my CC to pay! Wal-mart has the new thing on the scanner screen that says, "did your cashier greet you? Yes or No". Sad thing is I have yet to use the magic pen to touch yes. They are all awful! To make matters worse, when I'm leaving I say "thank you, have a great day". Does she she get a clue that she is supposed to say that to me??? NOPE. She says "your welcome" What the hell is wrong with her?

So I'm pondering this. I'm thinking, she must not really care(duh) b/c it's not her business. Surely if you own your own business you would put customer service on the top of your list, b/c they would be he meat and potatoes of what you do. You'd think right. Well, as I'm driving stewing over how mad I am. I get cut-off. Not by just anyone though. I get cut off by Jack. Who is Jack you say? He is the owner of Jack's Roofing. I know this because he not only has it plastered in the back window of his truck, it's all down the side. Hmmmm, does he realize that when he puts himself out there like that he is literally a driving advertisement for his business. Now no matter what I will NEVER call Jack's Roofing. I don't care how many other people may say he's wonderful. He provided me with bad customer service and lost a potenial customer without ever even knowing.

Everyday in our life we provide customer service. We may not actually serve customers, but we are all putting ourselves out there and representing something. How you treat people while you are representing will make a world of difference to someone else who is noticing your behavior, even if you are not. It all comes back to one basic life principal.

Treat others how you want to be treated.

ALL I WANT IS 3 PAIRS OF PANTS!!

At my new job I can't wear capris or gauchos :( At my old job I could. So, being as I live in Texas that was 1/2 my work wardrobe. My work clothes have literally been cut in half. I have like 5-6 pairs of pants. So I have been on the hunt for new ones:) An UNsuccessful hunt..grr.... I have been to Target, Lane Bryant, Kohl's, Cato(2 different ones!) and nothing! It's spring in Texas and every is selling Capris. The few pairs of pants that I have found are way to pricey!!! I mean what's a girl gotta do to get some reasonably priced clothing?????