Jonathan

My bubba

My buddy

My future NFL quarterback

My firstborn

This boy is awesome. He's going through a difficult phase right now.

I think it's that I'm about to be 8,

I'm going from being "little" kid, to being a BIG kid,

and I'm going to test my limits phase.

And, oh Boy, is he ever!

Even with his limit testing.

He is awesome.

He is polite

kind

sweet

thoughtful

smart

considerate

He is a

child of God

snuggler

brother

son

nephew

cousin

A die hard lover of football

He knows more trivia at 7 and 11 months

then most grown men!

Wanna know who won the first superbowl?

Ask him!

Who won the second?

Yup, he knows that one too!

He knows who the Bills played in each of their Superbowl losses

AND

what the score was!

He can name at least one player(past or present)

From every time in the NFL

He's amazing.

He's also book smart, this little guy has a thirst of knowledge that

only a 2nd grader can have.

He asks questions that I have never even thought about.

His grades are beyond worthy of bragging

Art 98%

Character Education 100%

Computer 92%

Health 100%

Language Arts 99%

Math 93%

Music 100%

PE 100%

Science 100%

Social Studies 99%

Spelling 99%

World Cultures 100%

I love this child more then I can even express in words.

He was totally worth the wait, worth the infertility work, worth the throwing up 6 times a day for 6 months, worth the 3 hospital stays,worth the pre-term labor scare,

worth the 16 hours of non-medicated pain.

I want to keep him with me always.

I dread the day he goes to Middle School

then High school

I get nausous thinking about college

And marriage?

What if he doesn't marry the right girl?

As he grows he makes me have more respect for my parents and grandparents.

I thought my children growing up would be easier,

but it's not

It's harder

Because

everyday

he

is one day

closer

to leaving me.

I'm a bad mom

Yup, that's me. Bad Mom Angel(or BMA as I'd now like to be called). Last night was halloween. I didn't take pictures. Didn't even think about it. And now, thinking back on it I'm not really sorry I didn't. I mean how many halloweens do I need pictures of? I don't "believe" in halloween I only let the kids "celebrate" it b/c it's all around them, and quite frankly I don't care either way. I even got comments at work from my DM and RM b/c I didn't decorate the store for halloween. I told them, " I don't do halloween". They both looked at me like I'd grown a 2nd head. I mean really, it has to be one of the dumbest holidays. It means NOTHING. We "celebrate" NOTHING. Expensive costumes, cakie makeup, and enough candy to rot your teeth out. As a mother who currently does not have dental insurance for her kiddos. I hate this "holiday". However, today I went to Hobby Lobby and they had all their Christmas stuff out! Now that's a holiday I can get into! It totally put me in the mood(down Jason, the mood for Christmas!) I can't wait to decorate the tree, to hear carols walking through Target, to see the children's faces light up as gifts "appear" under the tree.
Yeah, I'm a Christmas girl :)

Kopy Kat

I saw this on Amber Nicole's blog and thought it had some neat questions, so I copy and pasted:

1. Paper or Plastic? Paper if it's Target, plastic everywhere else.
2. Favorite Song right now? I don't know. I've been looking for a new one. Chasing Cars is getting old, I'm thinking HURT by Christina
3. If you could have ONE thing in your "heaven", what would that thing be? (anything) Is this my real heaven or a heaven on earth? Real Heaven would be a relationship with my Lord(duh, that's why I'm there!) Heaven on earth....My mom being sober....
4. Name one person (not friend or family) that has changed your life Amber Nicole, I don't know her. I've never even talked to her. Only today(after she posted AWESOME pics of her boy)was I able to even leave a comment. She is so talented. She is open and honest on her blog(something I aspire to). I feel more creative after reading her blog, she's that one that snapped me out of scrappin' birthdays and C-mas and got me scrappin about feelings, and moments. I am thankful for that.
5. Why do you think we get "chills" when we aren't cold?
No clue..I think I'll write to GA and ask them to address this on a future episode!

I am tagging Sister, Lou, Ten, Nuna, Tara, Ms. Tyne, and anyone else that reads my blog! Go now! Do it!

hmmmmmm

I think I'm tired of blogging. I don't get a lot of feedback. That bugs me. I can track from where the blog is read. I don't know people there. Why don't they say "hi", let me know they were here. And since I don't know who is reading, I don't feel comfortable being 100% "me". We'll see. Maybe it's just a phase.

Football and cheer leading is over. WOO-HOO! It was fun, and we all loved it, but we are so happy it's over. At the awards ceremony Savannah got the an award for most Christ-like from her coach. She was very excited about that. Poor Jonathan and Elize, their parents were their coaches so of course they couldn't get the award. They did great too though. I think I'm going o to sign Jonathan up for upward basketball. Jason isn't going to coach though! It'll be nice to just drop him at practice and go to the games without any of the extra stuff.

I gave Oli is book. My first scrapbook for hire. It wasn't done, but a lot of pages were in it. I think close to 40, and I still have at least 30 more to get done. It's so hard only being able to work on it on the weekends.

I recently figured out why I dislike working. It's not the job, or the people, it's the politics. I hate when people who have never done my job, never been in my store think that they know how to do my job. Um, HELLO! No you don't. It's hard not to kill the messenger. It's so dumb. Let me be, but they can't. They feel they have to harp about a missing fax cover sheet, when they got the rest of the stupid frickin' fax! Anyway....

I'm worried about Melibelle, if you're reading this please e-mail me, text me, call me, snail mail me, or contact me by any other means.

We are gonna do it, it's going to work

It'll be slow.

We have lots of planning.

I know we can do it.

We are both smart independent, hard-working women.

I'm thinking 1-2 years.

Hopefully less.

I want it to be right.

Be ready.

I want to say, be perfect

But I won't

It'll be just the way it's supposed to be

I hope

I'm so tired. I know you hear that all the time. It's true. Now it's a part of daily life. Oh well, listen to it or stop reading!

I sold my treadmill. I don't know that I would even call it "mine". I never even plugged it it. So I sold it to my collections girl at work. Hopefully she gets more use out of it than me.

Christmas is less than 2 months away. I'm stressed about this. Normally I'm done by now. I haven't even started, I don't even have any ideas. The kids are getting MP3 players, that's about all I know. I'd love to get them new bedroom furniture. That's like 2G's though, so it's not happening. I think I might start buying them pieces 1 at a time.

I'm almost done with Oli's book. I won't have it all done in time to give it to his wife, which bums me out. I can only work on it in my free time, and Lord knows I don't have much of that. It's wonderful though. I'm so pleased with how it has turned out. I hope they love it.

My DM makes such a deal out of when I need time off. I called today to see if I could take 90 minutes off for Jonathan's fall party, and he made me feel like he was doing me a favor by letting me go. I hate that feeling.

I'm still coming to grips with the fact that I'll neve be a SAHM again. It's rough, it's like part of me is dying. I'm going to work the rest of life. People do it everyday, I know. It's not what I want for me, for my family. I feel like I'm going to be stuck at my job forever. I will never make the money I make there anyway else. So I have to stay. BTW, thanks for attending my pity party......

Party Pooped

I'm exhausted. I want to go to bed. I still have to scrap. The party went great. The girls loved the castle bounce house. It was a great feeling not to have to entertain 20 kids. They went out side, they ate cake and ice cream, we opened gifts, they went home. Clean up was not as easy, but hey what do expect after having 30+ people running around your house?

I'm off to the table......

Party Prep

We are preparing for the "double birthday" which is what the girls' have dubbed the party tomorrow. The house is clean, the yard is pooper scooped, most of the gifts are bought. Thankfully Staci is making the cakes, have I mention how THANKFUL I am that Staci is making the cakes! We will be having all sorts of yummy munchies as well. I still have to clean my room and put away some laundry, and make the goody bags. I hope I have enough. Elize said some kids from her class are coming but they did not RSVP. I hate rude people.

I can't wait until tomorrow. The girls don't know it yet, but we are going to have a bounce house! Yup, a GAINT pink castle will fill our yard tomorrow afternoon. Isn't that so cool? I can't wait to see their expression. They are going to be so excited.

For those of you coming, I can't wait to see you tomorrow.
If you are not coming, you better live far away!

I love this man!

I mean I REALLY love this man! 10 years.....it seems like forever ago, yet yesterday. I don't really remember not being with him. Everything before him is pretty much a blur. How did I live 18 years without him? He came into my life at the most perfect time. and he is perfect for me. He puts up with so much crap from me. If I have a bad day or if I'm mad, he gets the brunt of it and never complains. He just listens and lets me vent on him. I love that. He not only makes me feel beautiful, he convinces me that I am. He doesn't waiver about it, he makes me believe it too. When I'm down he picks me up, when I'm high he lifts me higher.

He works hard for our family.

He is a great father.

He is my world.

I love you.

My gift......

He gave me 20 long stem roses with a card that made me cry(of course!) and a picture of my D80 that he swears he's going to get me no matter how much I protest.

Another reason I love him......

Exactly 5 years ago today, I was in labor....

With this beautiful girl.....

She is 5 years old today. I can't believe my "baby" is 5. In some ways it seems like she's younger, and in some ways so much older. For those of you that know Savannah she is a wonderful, exciting, girl. She is full of life and fun. I am so blessed to have her in my life, and thankful for all that she has given me and has taught and continues to teach me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAVANNAH!

I'm home

We are back! I'm happy yet sad. It was great to come home to a bunch of hugs and kisses, but dang, did we HAVE to come home????? I wish I could fill you in a our exciting weekend, but the truth is it wasn't exciting, and that was exactly how I wanted! On Friday we checked into our cabin, got in the hot tub, went to dinner, got in the hot tub, went to bed.

On Saturday pretty much the same thing except we went and got massages.

It was great to have NO time line, no where to be, and no one to entertain.

This was out cabin, it was called the Linderhof, which for those of you that have never been stationed in Germany is one of King Ludwigs Castles.

It was perfect.

I'm going to try and convince the lifesavers to have a weekend there!

This is my hunny in the hot tub, we spent a lot of time in there!

I mean really it's on back porch, we didn't want it to go to waste:)

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Today I had to come back home to real life:( And to make real life worse I bought a coffee pot. I officially feel old. I only drink coffee from Starbucks, I have never made it at home before. Now I think I'm to a point where I have to. I have made a command decision to get up everyday at 6:30. I can only do this with help from my good friends, Black and Decker, and Folgers. When I got home I had to go grocery shopping and while out I bought me this: It has a timer so I won't actually have to get up and make coffee, it'll start perculating on it's own at 6:20. Sweet.

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When I got home and checked my cluster map, there was a whole bunch of new hits in places where I don't think I know people. Which I know is not uncommon in the blog world, but it still trips me out. I wish they would comment, then I think of all the people I blog stalk and don't comment so, I guess we are even.

Thank you to my sister and kiddos who not only had cake and presents waiting for me when I got home, but had also cleaned the whole house and done laundry! YOU ROCK!

Thank you to my lovely friend Melibelle for the fabulous Those Were The Days kit she got me for my birthday. I love it!!! MWAH!

This was by far my best birthday in recent history, a special thanks to all.

I love each and everyone of you.

My birthday at work!

I totally got the birthday hook up at work! Kim got me the purse, bodywash, and lotion. Drea decorated my area and got me the HUGE balloon, and Thomas got me Greay's Anatomy Season 2 and Orange Daisys(not pictured).

Less than 48 hours from now.....

I'll be snug as a bug in a rug in a cabin in the woods with my one and only.

I can't wait.

Seriously, I'm like a kid waiting for my birthday party.

Today I called and scheduled us Swedish massages too.

That is our only plan for the weekend. Other than that we are free to lounge and do(or not do)whatever we want. What a wonderful feeling.

I can't get a good shot of Jason's new do, so I'll update later. I'm getting my hair done tomorrow too! My stylist is giving me a FREE cut and color to be her guinea pig. Hey, it's only hair, I'm up for anything!!!

Amanda got her kids back today! Well, we still have them. She's coming to get them this weekend. Please continue to pray for her and for the kids. It's going to to be an adjustment for her after being childless for 6 months.

I got a call tonight saying that I should be getting a goodie in the mail......I l LOVE, LOVE, LOVE goodies in the mail! She totally knows this too! MWAH! Love ya!

A new do' for my favorite dude

Last night Jason got his haircut then I put highlights in it. It's looks so freakin' cute! I Love it. I'm totally diggin' my post Army guy. Here is a before pic, I'll post an after tonight.

OH, and........2 days until my birthday and my weekend away with the hubby!!

We interupt the countdown to my birthday for this brief message.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUNA! She's the BIG 3-0,

and looking better than ever:)

~Countdown to my Birthday~

Yesterday I got my first birthday gift! Be Delicious by DKNY. It smells awesome! I tried to take picture of the bottle, which by the way looks like a little apple! It has a chrome topper though and you could see me taking the picture in the picture! Make Sense? Anyway, Thank you so much my dear friend for the fabulous smelling perfume! I LOVE IT!

You've gotta friend in me!

A good friend: one that will ride a freaky space ship ride at the science center with your hubby when you are too scared to. Thanks for being a good friend!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTYNE!!!

I love you!

YOU'VE COME A LONG WAY BABY!!!

How could you NOT love her? She's gorgeous, inside and out. She's smart, helpful, kind, considerate, and I'm blessed to call her my NIEICE.

Happy Birthday Baby!

Who lives in New Mexico, Asia, and Georgia???

So I but I blog tracker on here so I could see who's reading my blog. Some of these places I just don't know who it is?? I know Kansas is family, Texas is the lifesavers, Pa is Jason's mom, whoever is in NY is also Jason's family. NC is Deanna. I'm pretty sure FL is Selena, TN is of course Ms. Tyne. I think OKC is someone who swears not to like me, so I wonder why she reads my blog....IL/Mo is of course Tara-mesue:) Germany is Sarah.

New Mexico, Georgia and Asia are kicking my butt though. Who are you and how'd you end up on my blog. I don't mind, I'm just curious....

I took a nap

It was like a blessing and a curse. I was so tired on Sunday afternoon I could hardly keep my eyes open, so I napped. Since I did, the laundry didn't get done, the Sunday house cleaning didn't get done. I of course feel guilty about this. I feel like my house is a pit. I have not done a very good job of teaching my children to clean. It's my fault. I'm a freak. I'd rather do it myself and have it done my way, then be patient and let them do it. So they haven't done it, and now when I try to get them to, they do a sucky job at it. So I try to do it all myself. I felt like a loser last week,. I only worked 50 hours but still couldn't get my sh*t together. I'm sinking, I'm tired of everything and everyone. I want a break. Amanda has court tomorrow. I pray she gets her kids back. I love them, I truly do. My "good deed" is over running my life though. It's keeping Misty from moving on to bigger and better things for her and her girls, b/c she's home caring for A and C. No one in this house can move forward until they go back to their mom. I'm not going to be able to quit my job anytime soon. Jason isn't happy at work again. We all know what happened last time he wasn't happy. I don't want a replay. We are working on a plan for him to go back to school. He almost has an AA, so he'd only to need to go back for 2ish years. He wants to coach football. He's thinking of getting a physical ed teaching degree and going from there. I just want him to be happy. I'm so sick of him being unhappy. I don't understand how people are not happy and are not thankful. I go through my spurts of "unhappy" (like right now!), but they are short lived. I don't stay in a funk for more than a few hours. It's not me. I don't know how I got like this. Everyone get funky and stay funky for days, weeks, and sometimes even months. Not me. I'm a freak(again!) . I'm a positive person that always see the upside and doesn't dwell on the crappy. I have a very hard time understanding those who dwell on the crappy and don't try to change, or at least live with it and make the best of it. Lead or get out of the way. That's my motto. No one is going to change your life but you. So start living, or start dying, but either way stop your complaining!

Jonathan got a hair cut!

Before:

After:

He's now the coolest 7 year old at HSA. He rocks!

If you don't like it

I don't care,

don't leave a comment on it though.

I don't need more negitivity in my life.