The End of an Era!!

As a child I spent many a summer weekends racing with my grandparents. It is some of my happiest memories. It was so neat to brag that MY grampy was a race car driver! We would arrive at the track on Fridays, they would do qualifying runs, then there would always be a big BBQ sponsored by the SCCA( sports car club of america). Then Saturday and Sunday were always HOT, with lots of last minute fixes and tire changes to be done. I always had to hang out at the RV or in the stands b/c you had to be 15 to go down in the pit. By the time I was old enough to go down in the pits I was off living my own life hanging out with my friends on the weekends instead of my grandparents. My Grampy didn't stop racing until 2001, but by then I was in Texas, having babies, and being a wife.

This weekend Grampy took the car out of the garage, loaded it on the trailer and took it to David's. For as long as I can remember I have been able to open the garage door and see the 'ol MG waiting to be prepped for the next race. Now the garage has a new occupant.
Now that the MG is out of the garage, it leaves room for Grampy to park is new love.... For the past few years the porche has had to sit in the driveway. No more! It has it's own home in the garage now protecting from the children(mine) who will be riding scooters, bikes, and skateboards in the driveway :o)
If want to or have time to sit and try to visualize me in my daily life. Here it is. This is my home. Now matter how far from Kansas I am. Grammie's has always been home. I am soooo happy to be here and to know that even when I'm not living here anymore, I will only be a short drive away!!
Tomorrow I go pick up my babies from the airport!! I can't wait. I'm SOOOO ready for them to be home. I enrolled them in school yesterday, found out who their teachers are, and got a feel for the school. I have already purchased all their supplies(so much less than what the TX school districts wanted). I feel like I actually purchased for my child, not all the children sitting around them. It even stated to place your child's name ON their supplies! In TX they specifically said NOT to place your child's name on supplies!! I need to get Savannah some shoes for school, and Jonathan needs a few more things, but for the most part they are set!!

Annoyed

It's kinda petty,

but important to me.

GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Okay, vent over.

I feel a little better ;O)

Happy Saturday!!

Gainfully Employed!

Yup, Jason has a job!! He starts on Monday!! The pay is good. Benefits are great, but we have to pay out the nose on the premium!! It's more than double what we paid in TX. Instead of 25 and 40 dollar co pays we have 10 and 10. Sweet! Plus $3 generic RX's. You can't beat it.

We are on the wait list for a town home in a nice apartment complex in town. We plan on staying here in until November 1. We want to be in our own place when Forrest is born. The kiddos come home next Friday, then we are planning a trip to Abilene to see family and old friends. Everything is coming together :0) God is Good, no, make that Great!!

Almost Employed :o)

Jason's interview went really well! They called him back within 2 hours to schedule a 2nd interview! When we went back today they talked to him about a totally different position than want he applied for. An accounting position instead of an admissions position! Craziness! They are willing to start him between his starting and ending wage at RR. Which is awesome! Insurance begins after 60 days!! He's really excited about the opportunity. He is still going to follow up with David about Cessna. We are pretty sure his starting wage with this other job is higher though.

I haven't heard back from the insurance agency about the position I interviewed for. I suppose they are still doing the checks. We'll see. I'll be excited if I get it, and OK if I don't. I love being home again, and being lazy!!

Update, Update, Upadate

We are here. We are alive. We are ecstatic!

Friday was stressful!! The penske place wouldn't take Jason' Gma's CC. Soooo...we had to go to U-haul and pay 100 dollars more! We got a truck and that's all that matters. Jason loaded the truck Friday and Saturday morning. Staci and CJ arrived after lunch to load the heavy stuff, and Thank God they did! They were LIFESAVERS!! We left Texas about 6:45 on Saturday evening. Whooooooooooooooo-Hooooooooooooooooooo!!

We ran into a bad storm in Oklahoma that had be praying out loud to my Lord above. I couldn't see the road, it was coming down so hard. My max speed was about 25 mph. It was awful. We rolled into Grammies at 1:30. It only took us 45 minutes longer than normal with the u-haul.

Yesterday Jason, Grampy, Grammie and I unloaded the uhaul. It came out alot faster than it went it!! Then we hung out here at the house, and grammie and I made Jason his birthday dinner of choice. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!

Today I had my interview at 10. It went really well! it lasted and hour, then they called me an hour later to have me come back and fill out the paper work for credit and DMV checks. Sweet! I went to the Dr. today to. All is well, he seems nice.

Tomorrow Jason has an interview at 12. Hopefully that goes well, and my uncle is going to try and get home on at Cessna. I plan on being completely and totally lazy tomorrow, except for going to the library to print some stuff out.

I'm leaving in a mini van...don't know when I'll be back again....

We are up and at'm!!! Jason just left to get boxes and breakfast. I'm about to hop in the shower and finish up this bedroom! Jason loaded 90% of the boxes last night, so today is big stuff and misc crap that we find as we clear out each room.

Can you believe it???

I'm leaving Texas today!! Wooo-Hoo!

Jason's Grandma gave him her CC number, now lets hope the truck rental place will accept it......

Update

So HR said that since my last day was before the paydate my information was deleted and a check mailed. He paid it was mail 2 days before the paydate which was Wednesday. Ummm, I was still employed there on Wednesday so why was it mailed?? I had already changed my address, so the check is on it's way to Kansas. Doesn't do me much good here in Texas. So I'm waiting on a call back from his manager and in the mean time Jason is calling his Grandma to see about borrowing the money. Agh!!!

A test-and I don't lke

So I was supposed to get paid today. I didn't. I wasn't my last paycheck, so there is no reason to hold any of it or to mail it or any BS like that. I have another check coming after this. I NEED this money! I tried calling HR, but they don't open until 8. I have 27 minutes to stew and get angrier than I already am.

Sooooo...

Yesterday I applied for 5 or 6 jobs online. I didn't put any time or effort into it. I just searched career builder and applied for what sounded interesting, even if I wasn't qualified. I didn't even submit a cover letter with any of my resumes.

Today I got a call!! It was from one of the insurance companies I applied at. I applied for 2 different positions, so I'm not sure which one they are calling about, nor do I remember what they are for. Note to self: Go back to Career Builder before returning the call....

Now the bad part. I feel HORRIBLE! Jason has been job searching for 2 months with little feedback and I half a**ed apply for some jobs and get a call, and I don't even want to work!! AGH!! Either way we need the money so pray for me!!

amazing isn't??

How you can find something you hadn't thought about in ages and it will take your happy mood and shake it to the core. How it can take you from the top of the world to the depths of hell. Today while packing our room I found all of Jason's college info for nursing school. I opened the folder, read what was inside, and chucked it so hard and loud across the room that Jason came running in. It represents a fork. A fork in his road that he choose not to take. A fork that instead almost lead to the end of our marriage. Instead of holding out at GR Morris and starting nursing school in 2 months, he decided to go to work for Select Comfort and well..the rest is history.

Now I'm angry, upset, hurt, mad, and a million other emotions that I can not put into words. Some good things have come from that experience, although not many. As a Christan I know God's hand was at work the whole time whether or not I choose to or want to believe that. He has the big picture and I can only see what is in front of me. That is what has gotten me through. Him, not me. His strength, not mine. I am not a dweller of the past. I know it gets you no where. Look forward, look to future, look at the blessings that I have NOW. There are to many to count, but to get my mind off of this I'm going to try.....

Don't Worry

Due to my addiction to Blogger and Myspace I will not be taking the laptop to KS with us. We have very little time with the children as it is and I do want to waste any of our time together.

Sooooo....see you Sunday!!

Happy 4th!!

What a Great Weekend!!

FRIDAY: Not only did I get to go to lunch with Claudia I also was invited to dinner by Melibelle!! We had a great time and chatted and laughed for about 3 hours!! She gave me a personalized necklace of the kids names (minus one, I have to send it back to her later)












Saturday: Check the baby blog, I'm not retyping all of that!! I was so tired I crashed at 8:30 Saturday evening, then woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed at 1 am!

Sunday: I was going to pack my scrap stuff, but first I wanted to organize it. Wheew. What a task! I had 5 boxes on my bed and I started placing items in each box(tools, embelishnments, photos, ect...). I have the scrap closet empty, but I still have to go through the armoire which is FULL!! Needless to say I will not finish this tonight!!

BEFORE:





<-------About 1/2 way through!!







I have given up cleaning and packing for the day. Army Wives is on!

Do you recognize this woman??

Today I went to lunch with Claudia. We hada blast!! Chatting with an old friend and enjoying a good meal is the best!!

I am more than a little pissed. A month ago Jason's mom asked for the kids, and wanted to fly them out that weekend. Remember? Well, she FINALLY called back to see what dates she could get the kids. The dates we thought would work originally won't, b/c Jonathan begins football on July 25 and School starts August 12. So she calls, Jason gives her a span of potential dates. Anytime between July 7 and July 25, and they have to fly out of Wichita b/c my grandparents will not drive 4 hours to Kansas City.

So she calls back and says she can get a straight through flight out of OKC on the 7th. Well, my grandparents are not going to drive them 3 hours to OKC either. So trying to be accommodating Jason recommends getting the flight on Sunday the 6th, and we can take them to the airport on our way back to Texas. So she calls the airlines back and books their flight...LEAVING OUT OF OKC ON SATURDAY THE 5TH!!! And returning July 25th.

Which means that in the span of 9 weeks I will see my children 1 1/2 days. Can I tell you how unhappy this makes me? Not to mention she got her way and we are taking the kids to OKC AND we will have to pick them up from OKC when they return. So here is what my 4th of July weekend will be like:

July 3rd: Leave work at noon, get to KS at dinner time
July 4th: Spend day with the kids
July 5th: Leave Grammies at 9 so we can drive to the airport and check the kids in for their 2 o'clock flight. Leave OKC when their flight does and return to Texas

In there do you see any time for me to go to Abilene and meet my new nephew??? Nope that's b/c I'm taking my kids to the airport on the day SHE wanted, instead of the day Jason told her! I think she did it on purpose. She is constantly trying to bully him into doing things her way or "choosing" her.

She still has yet to acknowledge the new baby. She did ask how I was, and Jason said good and that we are almost 1/2 way there. To which she replied, that's good. She didn't ask how the baby was, when he's due, what names we are thinking about! Nothing. Can I stress how DONE I am with his family. I sent her pictures of him after the last sonogram, and she didn't even acknowledge them. At least could have written back, go to hell, I hate you. After talking to his mother, Jason called his grandmother to let her know the kids would be east this summer. Did she ask about the baby?? NO! WTF! I asked Jason if they knew the baby was HIS. I just can't fathom why they are being so ugly. Jeez, heaven forbid we have 7 years between children!!

This just reiterates why we are moving to KANSAS to be near family and NOT New York. My family doesn't treat him like this. And honestly, they would have reason too. I have never been anything but supportive and loving to him over the past 12 years and they still act like I'm Satan. Of course since I can't confront them about their stupidness. I take it out on Jason. I personally think he should and could have more of a backbone with them. However he thinks it would fall on deaf ears and he'd be wasting his time. Either way, it makes me mad at him. While I understand it isn't 100% his fault, I do think he should buck up more. I mean honestly if my mother didn't want to speak to me about this child I'd be devestated! Luckily, my mother for all of her "issues" would NEVER do that! Nor would my grandmother or anyone I deem worthy of being in my life.

If you can't celebrate my joy, then screw you.
It's just sad when it's the child's own grandmother....

Today is the day

Today I will put in my 2 week notice. I have been counting down to this day for so so long it seems almost anti-climatic. I thought I'd be happier, but I still don't want to go to work. I couldn't fall asleep last night, so I'm pretty cranky day. I just want to lay here in bed and sleep.

Today was productive!

We move in 3 weeks! I can't wait! We have been lax in the packing department. So after Jason realized next weekend is my shower( I expect to see all of you there!), then we are going to Kansas the following weekend for the 4th, then the next weekend we are MOVING he decided he'd better get his butt in gear!!

This is what we packed today:

We finished the living room. The only thing left is the Partylite that I no longer have boxes for and the curio. I need bubble wrap for all of that.

We packed all the clothes Jason's manager sent home with him for Savannah. A bunch of cute stuff! She told Jason her daughter is an "Old Navy Ho", and it showed! I'm so thankful, she's growing out of everything.

We packed our closet. What a task. It had clothes, shoes, partylite holders and wax, a printer...

We packed all the boxed partylite. It's never good for Jason to see that many teal boxes at once :)

We packed the hallway bath. Nothing left but TP and the kitty litter box. Any one want a cat?

And finally the hall closet, nothing left in there but the shoes we still wear

While all this was going on, I have been doing laundry

STILL TO DO:

Scrap Stuff- It's a daunting task. I want to keep some stuff out b/c there are 2 scrapbooks stores up there. I want to be able to go to crops and meet people.

Our room- Not really to much in here

Kitchen-This will be the biggest pain

Our bathroom- This will be hard b/c I keep telling myself I'm going to throw away all my old makeup and hair product.

Storage Unit-Agh. I don't even want to think about that.

Got any extra prayers??

I've got a little list of prayer requests:

1. Peace of mind for Jason. He is stressing about finding a job. I keep telling him we don't move for almost a month, but he is on pins and needles.

2. My teeth. I broke one of my teeth today eating candy. I just got the tooth pulled from when I broke a tooth eating candy with Savannah!! This one is not at the back so it can't be pulled, it will have to be capped. Not while pregnant though! Please pray that it doesn't start hurting!!

3. Money-Not getting the stimulus check really put a cramp in our savings. I am saving as much as I can, but I still have to pay our bills while we are here too!

4. My sister. She's starting over. Pray for a great job and a smooth transition.

Boring

Not that I'm complaining. I love boring!! I am working, sleeping, and working again. That's pretty much it. They have overtime, and I need the money, but man I hate my job so much. I do not want to stay there 1 second longer than I have to. Only 16 days of work left. I can't wait. I give my notice on Monday. I'm kinda hoping they will just tell me I can leave and pay me for my last 2 weeks. Hey, a girl has to have a dream right :o)

Happy Sunday!

Ok, not really. Sundays are bittersweet. I love the day its self, but I hate that it is the day before Monday. The day before I have to go back to my hell hole of a job. I can't even begin to put into words how much I hate my job. I changed my shift from 7-4 back to 8-5. At least this way I can put off going, even if I have to stay an extra hour. AGH! Only 1 week until I put in my notice and only 3 weeks and 2 days until my last day. Our management is so stupid. I know others in different departments who don't hate it, so it must just be our department. They suck. Not my co-workers I like most of them. Just management.