I'm so tired. I know you hear that all the time. It's true. Now it's a part of daily life. Oh well, listen to it or stop reading!

I sold my treadmill. I don't know that I would even call it "mine". I never even plugged it it. So I sold it to my collections girl at work. Hopefully she gets more use out of it than me.

Christmas is less than 2 months away. I'm stressed about this. Normally I'm done by now. I haven't even started, I don't even have any ideas. The kids are getting MP3 players, that's about all I know. I'd love to get them new bedroom furniture. That's like 2G's though, so it's not happening. I think I might start buying them pieces 1 at a time.

I'm almost done with Oli's book. I won't have it all done in time to give it to his wife, which bums me out. I can only work on it in my free time, and Lord knows I don't have much of that. It's wonderful though. I'm so pleased with how it has turned out. I hope they love it.

My DM makes such a deal out of when I need time off. I called today to see if I could take 90 minutes off for Jonathan's fall party, and he made me feel like he was doing me a favor by letting me go. I hate that feeling.

I'm still coming to grips with the fact that I'll neve be a SAHM again. It's rough, it's like part of me is dying. I'm going to work the rest of life. People do it everyday, I know. It's not what I want for me, for my family. I feel like I'm going to be stuck at my job forever. I will never make the money I make there anyway else. So I have to stay. BTW, thanks for attending my pity party......