I took a nap

It was like a blessing and a curse. I was so tired on Sunday afternoon I could hardly keep my eyes open, so I napped. Since I did, the laundry didn't get done, the Sunday house cleaning didn't get done. I of course feel guilty about this. I feel like my house is a pit. I have not done a very good job of teaching my children to clean. It's my fault. I'm a freak. I'd rather do it myself and have it done my way, then be patient and let them do it. So they haven't done it, and now when I try to get them to, they do a sucky job at it. So I try to do it all myself. I felt like a loser last week,. I only worked 50 hours but still couldn't get my sh*t together. I'm sinking, I'm tired of everything and everyone. I want a break. Amanda has court tomorrow. I pray she gets her kids back. I love them, I truly do. My "good deed" is over running my life though. It's keeping Misty from moving on to bigger and better things for her and her girls, b/c she's home caring for A and C. No one in this house can move forward until they go back to their mom. I'm not going to be able to quit my job anytime soon. Jason isn't happy at work again. We all know what happened last time he wasn't happy. I don't want a replay. We are working on a plan for him to go back to school. He almost has an AA, so he'd only to need to go back for 2ish years. He wants to coach football. He's thinking of getting a physical ed teaching degree and going from there. I just want him to be happy. I'm so sick of him being unhappy. I don't understand how people are not happy and are not thankful. I go through my spurts of "unhappy" (like right now!), but they are short lived. I don't stay in a funk for more than a few hours. It's not me. I don't know how I got like this. Everyone get funky and stay funky for days, weeks, and sometimes even months. Not me. I'm a freak(again!) . I'm a positive person that always see the upside and doesn't dwell on the crappy. I have a very hard time understanding those who dwell on the crappy and don't try to change, or at least live with it and make the best of it. Lead or get out of the way. That's my motto. No one is going to change your life but you. So start living, or start dying, but either way stop your complaining!

Jonathan got a hair cut!

Before:

After:

He's now the coolest 7 year old at HSA. He rocks!

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I don't care,

don't leave a comment on it though.

I don't need more negitivity in my life.