Jason's Grandma gave him her CC number, now lets hope the truck rental place will accept it......

Update

So HR said that since my last day was before the paydate my information was deleted and a check mailed. He paid it was mail 2 days before the paydate which was Wednesday. Ummm, I was still employed there on Wednesday so why was it mailed?? I had already changed my address, so the check is on it's way to Kansas. Doesn't do me much good here in Texas. So I'm waiting on a call back from his manager and in the mean time Jason is calling his Grandma to see about borrowing the money. Agh!!!

A test-and I don't lke

So I was supposed to get paid today. I didn't. I wasn't my last paycheck, so there is no reason to hold any of it or to mail it or any BS like that. I have another check coming after this. I NEED this money! I tried calling HR, but they don't open until 8. I have 27 minutes to stew and get angrier than I already am.

Sooooo...

Yesterday I applied for 5 or 6 jobs online. I didn't put any time or effort into it. I just searched career builder and applied for what sounded interesting, even if I wasn't qualified. I didn't even submit a cover letter with any of my resumes.

Today I got a call!! It was from one of the insurance companies I applied at. I applied for 2 different positions, so I'm not sure which one they are calling about, nor do I remember what they are for. Note to self: Go back to Career Builder before returning the call....

Now the bad part. I feel HORRIBLE! Jason has been job searching for 2 months with little feedback and I half a**ed apply for some jobs and get a call, and I don't even want to work!! AGH!! Either way we need the money so pray for me!!

amazing isn't??

How you can find something you hadn't thought about in ages and it will take your happy mood and shake it to the core. How it can take you from the top of the world to the depths of hell. Today while packing our room I found all of Jason's college info for nursing school. I opened the folder, read what was inside, and chucked it so hard and loud across the room that Jason came running in. It represents a fork. A fork in his road that he choose not to take. A fork that instead almost lead to the end of our marriage. Instead of holding out at GR Morris and starting nursing school in 2 months, he decided to go to work for Select Comfort and well..the rest is history.

Now I'm angry, upset, hurt, mad, and a million other emotions that I can not put into words. Some good things have come from that experience, although not many. As a Christan I know God's hand was at work the whole time whether or not I choose to or want to believe that. He has the big picture and I can only see what is in front of me. That is what has gotten me through. Him, not me. His strength, not mine. I am not a dweller of the past. I know it gets you no where. Look forward, look to future, look at the blessings that I have NOW. There are to many to count, but to get my mind off of this I'm going to try.....

Don't Worry

Due to my addiction to Blogger and Myspace I will not be taking the laptop to KS with us. We have very little time with the children as it is and I do want to waste any of our time together.

Sooooo....see you Sunday!!

Happy 4th!!

What a Great Weekend!!

FRIDAY: Not only did I get to go to lunch with Claudia I also was invited to dinner by Melibelle!! We had a great time and chatted and laughed for about 3 hours!! She gave me a personalized necklace of the kids names (minus one, I have to send it back to her later)












Saturday: Check the baby blog, I'm not retyping all of that!! I was so tired I crashed at 8:30 Saturday evening, then woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed at 1 am!

Sunday: I was going to pack my scrap stuff, but first I wanted to organize it. Wheew. What a task! I had 5 boxes on my bed and I started placing items in each box(tools, embelishnments, photos, ect...). I have the scrap closet empty, but I still have to go through the armoire which is FULL!! Needless to say I will not finish this tonight!!

BEFORE:





<-------About 1/2 way through!!







I have given up cleaning and packing for the day. Army Wives is on!

Do you recognize this woman??

Today I went to lunch with Claudia. We hada blast!! Chatting with an old friend and enjoying a good meal is the best!!

I am more than a little pissed. A month ago Jason's mom asked for the kids, and wanted to fly them out that weekend. Remember? Well, she FINALLY called back to see what dates she could get the kids. The dates we thought would work originally won't, b/c Jonathan begins football on July 25 and School starts August 12. So she calls, Jason gives her a span of potential dates. Anytime between July 7 and July 25, and they have to fly out of Wichita b/c my grandparents will not drive 4 hours to Kansas City.

So she calls back and says she can get a straight through flight out of OKC on the 7th. Well, my grandparents are not going to drive them 3 hours to OKC either. So trying to be accommodating Jason recommends getting the flight on Sunday the 6th, and we can take them to the airport on our way back to Texas. So she calls the airlines back and books their flight...LEAVING OUT OF OKC ON SATURDAY THE 5TH!!! And returning July 25th.

Which means that in the span of 9 weeks I will see my children 1 1/2 days. Can I tell you how unhappy this makes me? Not to mention she got her way and we are taking the kids to OKC AND we will have to pick them up from OKC when they return. So here is what my 4th of July weekend will be like:

July 3rd: Leave work at noon, get to KS at dinner time
July 4th: Spend day with the kids
July 5th: Leave Grammies at 9 so we can drive to the airport and check the kids in for their 2 o'clock flight. Leave OKC when their flight does and return to Texas

In there do you see any time for me to go to Abilene and meet my new nephew??? Nope that's b/c I'm taking my kids to the airport on the day SHE wanted, instead of the day Jason told her! I think she did it on purpose. She is constantly trying to bully him into doing things her way or "choosing" her.

She still has yet to acknowledge the new baby. She did ask how I was, and Jason said good and that we are almost 1/2 way there. To which she replied, that's good. She didn't ask how the baby was, when he's due, what names we are thinking about! Nothing. Can I stress how DONE I am with his family. I sent her pictures of him after the last sonogram, and she didn't even acknowledge them. At least could have written back, go to hell, I hate you. After talking to his mother, Jason called his grandmother to let her know the kids would be east this summer. Did she ask about the baby?? NO! WTF! I asked Jason if they knew the baby was HIS. I just can't fathom why they are being so ugly. Jeez, heaven forbid we have 7 years between children!!

This just reiterates why we are moving to KANSAS to be near family and NOT New York. My family doesn't treat him like this. And honestly, they would have reason too. I have never been anything but supportive and loving to him over the past 12 years and they still act like I'm Satan. Of course since I can't confront them about their stupidness. I take it out on Jason. I personally think he should and could have more of a backbone with them. However he thinks it would fall on deaf ears and he'd be wasting his time. Either way, it makes me mad at him. While I understand it isn't 100% his fault, I do think he should buck up more. I mean honestly if my mother didn't want to speak to me about this child I'd be devestated! Luckily, my mother for all of her "issues" would NEVER do that! Nor would my grandmother or anyone I deem worthy of being in my life.

If you can't celebrate my joy, then screw you.
It's just sad when it's the child's own grandmother....

Today is the day

Today I will put in my 2 week notice. I have been counting down to this day for so so long it seems almost anti-climatic. I thought I'd be happier, but I still don't want to go to work. I couldn't fall asleep last night, so I'm pretty cranky day. I just want to lay here in bed and sleep.

Today was productive!

We move in 3 weeks! I can't wait! We have been lax in the packing department. So after Jason realized next weekend is my shower( I expect to see all of you there!), then we are going to Kansas the following weekend for the 4th, then the next weekend we are MOVING he decided he'd better get his butt in gear!!

This is what we packed today:

We finished the living room. The only thing left is the Partylite that I no longer have boxes for and the curio. I need bubble wrap for all of that.

We packed all the clothes Jason's manager sent home with him for Savannah. A bunch of cute stuff! She told Jason her daughter is an "Old Navy Ho", and it showed! I'm so thankful, she's growing out of everything.

We packed our closet. What a task. It had clothes, shoes, partylite holders and wax, a printer...

We packed all the boxed partylite. It's never good for Jason to see that many teal boxes at once :)

We packed the hallway bath. Nothing left but TP and the kitty litter box. Any one want a cat?

And finally the hall closet, nothing left in there but the shoes we still wear

While all this was going on, I have been doing laundry

STILL TO DO:

Scrap Stuff- It's a daunting task. I want to keep some stuff out b/c there are 2 scrapbooks stores up there. I want to be able to go to crops and meet people.

Our room- Not really to much in here

Kitchen-This will be the biggest pain

Our bathroom- This will be hard b/c I keep telling myself I'm going to throw away all my old makeup and hair product.

Storage Unit-Agh. I don't even want to think about that.

Got any extra prayers??

I've got a little list of prayer requests:

1. Peace of mind for Jason. He is stressing about finding a job. I keep telling him we don't move for almost a month, but he is on pins and needles.

2. My teeth. I broke one of my teeth today eating candy. I just got the tooth pulled from when I broke a tooth eating candy with Savannah!! This one is not at the back so it can't be pulled, it will have to be capped. Not while pregnant though! Please pray that it doesn't start hurting!!

3. Money-Not getting the stimulus check really put a cramp in our savings. I am saving as much as I can, but I still have to pay our bills while we are here too!

4. My sister. She's starting over. Pray for a great job and a smooth transition.

Boring

Not that I'm complaining. I love boring!! I am working, sleeping, and working again. That's pretty much it. They have overtime, and I need the money, but man I hate my job so much. I do not want to stay there 1 second longer than I have to. Only 16 days of work left. I can't wait. I give my notice on Monday. I'm kinda hoping they will just tell me I can leave and pay me for my last 2 weeks. Hey, a girl has to have a dream right :o)

Happy Sunday!

Ok, not really. Sundays are bittersweet. I love the day its self, but I hate that it is the day before Monday. The day before I have to go back to my hell hole of a job. I can't even begin to put into words how much I hate my job. I changed my shift from 7-4 back to 8-5. At least this way I can put off going, even if I have to stay an extra hour. AGH! Only 1 week until I put in my notice and only 3 weeks and 2 days until my last day. Our management is so stupid. I know others in different departments who don't hate it, so it must just be our department. They suck. Not my co-workers I like most of them. Just management.

I have a nephew!!

He's my first! Jonathan has given up the reign has the only boy. I don't have pictures yet. But...

Codey Nathanial arrived June 12 at 8:35 a.m. via c-section.

He was 7lbs, 3 oz and 20 inches long

From what I hear he is totally gorgeous!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STACI!!

I don't have enough time in the day to write a blog about how much I love this woman!! She is indescribably WONDERFUL!! I hope you have a great day friend!! I love you!

We did it!

The kids room is packed!! Bunk beds are apart, books, toys, and clothes are in boxes! One room down!! Whoo-hoo! We have cleaned the rest of the house and are in the process of laundry! We need more boxes. Hopefully this will encourage us to start packing the rest of the house too. Slowly but surly it is getting done.

I had an AWESOME time at GASC. I made cards, no pages :0( It was great just hanging with the girls though.

Too bad tomorrow is Monday...agh. Not much longer.....

Wish me Luck!

We were up before noon. Woo-hoo! And we are getting ready to start packing the kids room. I'll let you know how is goes! I also want to catch up all the laundry, and clean the house. Lofty goals I know....

Don't forget, season 2 of Army Wives starts tonight on Lifetime!!!

GASC

Tomorrow I'm going to the Great American Scrapbook Convention. I haven't been scrapping near as much as I used to, but I still love it! I can't wait to have a little creative girl time. Jason is going to go the Rangers game next door, so he'll get to have a little fun too!

This weekend we HAVE to pack SOMETHING in this house!! I know it will be easy once we start, but it 's starting that is hard. Pray for a productive Sunday!

If it wasn't for bad luck, I'd have no luck.

So, much like the rest of America we have been looking forward to our stimulus check. While it wasn't going to be for fun stuff it was going to substantially increase our savings for moving. WAS, is the operative word in that sentence.

When Jason got out of the Army they over paid him. Every once in awhile they will send us a letter and I will send them fifty bucks, but to be honest it's totally not on my radar. They didn't bother with our 2006 or 2007 tax returns, but decide to suck up our stimulus check. Yup, all 1800 of it. I can file to get part of it back since the check is for both of us and the debt is only Jason's. I have have to wait for the papers from the IRS to arrive, then I have to mail them back and wait 8 weeks. 8 weeks! We'll be in Kansas by then! What good will it do!! So the buckle down is about to begin!! We planned on saving as much as we could anyway, but now every penny will count!! Agh!!